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irishjeepgirl1969
irishjeepgirl1969 Posts: 188 Member
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After so many binge free days, there was yesterday. Waiting in line for the concert, surrounded by teens, sugar, and mass undirected hype, I caved. Not terribly, but let's be real. Two doughnuts too many is still two doughnuts too many. But since we are being real, it was half of an enormous bag of trail mix.

Today? Luncheon after church and at home? Exhaustion. I eat when I am tired. I eat A LOT when I am tired.

So, why didn't I just go to bed? Why did I zombie my way through an embarrassing number of calories? WTF?

Why do we abuse ourselves this way? I want to be free of this. It's like I have zero control. I feel so dumb, so defeated.

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  • ab6046
    ab6046 Posts: 371 Member
    I do the exact same thing. It makes no sense, especially when you are home and can just go to bed. Don't be defeated though! You had a bad day, but you've also had a bunch of good ones recently! Pick yourself back up, and know there are a bunch of us out here for support!
  • ab6046
    ab6046 Posts: 371 Member
    Oh and as for doughnuts, look at my diary for Friday. I stopped logging a little after 9, so there's a lot that's unaccounted for in there...
  • irishjeepgirl1969
    irishjeepgirl1969 Posts: 188 Member
    Ab, we have an amazing bakery in my little community that bakes the lightest, fluffiest doughnuts....

    Today has been better. If I'm on my regular routine, I do fine. Change one variable, though, and I'm screwed. Gotta figure out how to work that out.
  • ab6046
    ab6046 Posts: 371 Member
    That bakery sounds dangerous! And awesome job, keep it up! I can orally relate to what you say about changing one variable. I often feel like eating certain foods, or past my calories limit, is like a gateway drug and then it's all downhill from there.
  • mweckler
    mweckler Posts: 623 Member
    I love doughnuts, and I know how to make them, I know how to make most pastries, cookies, candies, cakes, brownies, icings, cream filling, all sorts of things that trigger my binges, and I used to make them all quite often. I was the instrument of my own demise.
    @irishjeepgirl1969 I have issues changing my routine, I used to feel that one change would throw off every effort, I had to start a diet on a Monday, or start going to the gym on a certain day, and if I missed that day, then I was done and would quit. So you are not alone with that.

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