Does this ever happen to you?

RebeccaMaunder

I have struggled for many years with issues with ED, since my preteen years and I am now in my early 30's. I have been overweight my whole life and now am very very overweight. I have been trying to lose weight for so long. I am struggling right now because any time that I start to restrict I wind up eventually going on a binge and hating myself even more. I have so much fear with food right now. I don't even want to eat... I know that is not healthy but that is where I am at. Does anyone else ever get like this? I am trying very hard to not let this get the best of me but I am so frustrated. I feel like I can't win. (I have PCOS) which makes it so hard to lose weight.... *sigh*

Thank you

Becca

artsyfarts700

Yes I relate. Food has always been my enemy. It's a daily struggle to stay balanced. You're not alone. I also have PCOS so in the back of my mind I'm afraid I'll balloon out if I eat normally. I take one day at a time.

LostintheAmazon

I have struggled with that a lot too, and have been again recently. I kept on falling into the pattern of not eating for days, then feeling awful and people started confronting me, making me feel bad, so I would overeat to compensate, and so the cycle goes. What I find myself having to do is packing a certain amount of food and making sure that whatever I feel like, I at least eat that. It usually amounts to between 600-800 calories, so not as much as I should eat in a day by itself, but when I'm feeling like not eating anything, it ensures that I still eat something. I have people with me in classes and friends keep me on track and hold me accountable too. Its cliche, but it helps to have someone around who knows, and who you won't lie about not eating to. Then, when you feel like eating too much, I make a list of things to do, ANYTHING else besides eat more once I've hit my daily limit. Drink tea or decaf coffee (if anxiety is part of your ED like it is mine, caffine makes everything worse), read and tell yourself that you WILL NOT get up until you finish a certain number of pages. It takes practice, and I don't know if you'll find it helpful, but thats what I've found helped me. Best of luck!!!