Back on the path...
Imagine_if
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Hello everyone.
I am currently on the fifth day of an approximately nine month goal to tone up and lose 106 pounds by May 11 of next year (I've got special plans that day and I'd like to be at my mark by that day!)
At my highest weight of 289 lbs, I had a gastric bypass August 2007. The first six months were fine enough, but then I developed ulcers. From that point on I didn't do as well with weight loss (for many, many reasons). For about 4 more months I continued to slowly lose weight, until I stopped at my lowest post-op weight of 169. I maintained for about a full year, gaining only about 5 pounds. In the rest of the years I've regained. I'm currently at 230 lbs.
Today, emotionally I am in a better place - after 4 full days of the high protein eating - but overall, I'm a mess and really trying to clean up my weight as well as all areas of my life.
Physically, my wls left me vitamin deficient and I get routine iron infusions to meet that low. I should be taking other vitamins, but have not been. I intend to reorder and begin taking them in August. With the increased weight gain many of my pre-wls medical concerns are returning, especially the high blood pressure.
Overall I just want to shape and tone my body, drop the excess weight and reach my original wls goals. I remember what getting half way there felt like. I remember the 5Ks and walk-a-thons and bicycling that I participated in during the first year post-op. I remember feeling as though I was unstoppable and would only get stronger, healthier and leaner each day. I want to get to the finish line this time around AND once there, I want to actually maintain healthy fitness for the rest of my life.
My biggest struggle is lack of mental will power/resolve. I am not usually physically hungry and my current 5 day eating style has proven to me that my pouch is still fully intact; it's even shrinking again. I've been coming on these threads for encouragement and it's helped tremendously. Yet there are some times that I struggle most, such as with my spouse. We're not in a healthy place (I'm working on that too), and food has been my method of coping. Without it, I feel overwhelmed. Twice this week I've nearly chose junk purely out of emotion. Fortunately, I came to the MFP site first and didn't get into the food.
My other weight loss challenge is the physical portion. While I do enjoy some exercise, overall I'm a pretty sedentary and even lazy person. I don't enjoy being outdoors in heat and I am a 'curl up in the rocking chair with a great read' type of gal. I've not been motivated enough to start exercising yet. I know it is important for weight loss, skin toning (I had a LOT of sagging skin the first go round) and overall health, I want that.
So, if all that wasn't enough to scare you off, then please reply to this thread or contact me by message. Let me know how you're doing in this process and if you want to work out an accountability plan mention that too. Mostly I'd just love some friends who understand my journey and can be a positive support in it.
Best to you,
Marie.
I am currently on the fifth day of an approximately nine month goal to tone up and lose 106 pounds by May 11 of next year (I've got special plans that day and I'd like to be at my mark by that day!)
At my highest weight of 289 lbs, I had a gastric bypass August 2007. The first six months were fine enough, but then I developed ulcers. From that point on I didn't do as well with weight loss (for many, many reasons). For about 4 more months I continued to slowly lose weight, until I stopped at my lowest post-op weight of 169. I maintained for about a full year, gaining only about 5 pounds. In the rest of the years I've regained. I'm currently at 230 lbs.
Today, emotionally I am in a better place - after 4 full days of the high protein eating - but overall, I'm a mess and really trying to clean up my weight as well as all areas of my life.
Physically, my wls left me vitamin deficient and I get routine iron infusions to meet that low. I should be taking other vitamins, but have not been. I intend to reorder and begin taking them in August. With the increased weight gain many of my pre-wls medical concerns are returning, especially the high blood pressure.
Overall I just want to shape and tone my body, drop the excess weight and reach my original wls goals. I remember what getting half way there felt like. I remember the 5Ks and walk-a-thons and bicycling that I participated in during the first year post-op. I remember feeling as though I was unstoppable and would only get stronger, healthier and leaner each day. I want to get to the finish line this time around AND once there, I want to actually maintain healthy fitness for the rest of my life.
My biggest struggle is lack of mental will power/resolve. I am not usually physically hungry and my current 5 day eating style has proven to me that my pouch is still fully intact; it's even shrinking again. I've been coming on these threads for encouragement and it's helped tremendously. Yet there are some times that I struggle most, such as with my spouse. We're not in a healthy place (I'm working on that too), and food has been my method of coping. Without it, I feel overwhelmed. Twice this week I've nearly chose junk purely out of emotion. Fortunately, I came to the MFP site first and didn't get into the food.
My other weight loss challenge is the physical portion. While I do enjoy some exercise, overall I'm a pretty sedentary and even lazy person. I don't enjoy being outdoors in heat and I am a 'curl up in the rocking chair with a great read' type of gal. I've not been motivated enough to start exercising yet. I know it is important for weight loss, skin toning (I had a LOT of sagging skin the first go round) and overall health, I want that.
So, if all that wasn't enough to scare you off, then please reply to this thread or contact me by message. Let me know how you're doing in this process and if you want to work out an accountability plan mention that too. Mostly I'd just love some friends who understand my journey and can be a positive support in it.
Best to you,
Marie.
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Hi Marie - I'm back on this board after a long absence. You can read my story in the Checking In post, but I struggle with being hungry all the time! I envy those who'd had the surgery say they were never hungry, or "forgot to eat" - what is that!? :-)
For me, spending time on here talking about the struggle helps keep me motivated. We all know it's only a tool, not a solution - sometimes I lose track of what the solution could be.
Cheers!
Steffi0 -
Hi Steffi, are you still around? I was 'off' again, but back on track [again] today.
It's such a battle to live this healthy lifestyle. It's not the taste of the food or the amount, it is the constant bombardment of unhealthy foods EVERYWHERE around me. That, mixed with always needing to be conscious about each bite, especially when my family eats what they like and not have to keep track, be careful/ mindful, or limit themselves. I know that I can't reach optimum health that way, but I still struggle with wanting to.
Marie.0
