Introductions!

buxomvegan

Hi everyone! I noticed a few new faces have joined us, so I thought I'd start and introductions thread... tell us a little about yourself... where your from, age, and anything else you'd like to share! And welcome, again! I'm glad you're here!

And in case you haven't read my original welcome post, I'm Ashley. 31, married, mother of 2, from Upstate NY who has been battling Binge Eating Disorder for almost 3 years, but has been actively seeking recovery for the last 9 months or so. Anything else you want to learn about me you can learn by checking out my profile!

Have a great day guys!

buxomvegan

Thanks Karen for joining us!

Foreverabeauty

Hey I just found this group and I'm glad
My name is Elisabet and I'm from NYC I've been battling anorexia for about 4 months (I lost 50 pounds in that time) I got here because I'm tired of feeling sick and my hair falling out anyway I recently started eating right and exercising but it has honestly been so hard! I'm glad you made a thread that we come together and relate too. I'll keep you guys updated on how everything is going.

missgoulet

Hi, I'm Casey. 28 (for a couple more weeks at least!), mom of 2. I've spent most of my life with eating disorders, moving along the spectrum. Became anorexic in my pre-teens, moving to binge-purge and back to anorexia during high school. After having my son I struggled with depression and began to eat my feelings and for the last 8 years have been struggling with binge eating. Tired of food controlling my life and glad to have found this group since I have no support system at home

shandy4487

I'm kinda late but wanted to introduce myself anyway! My name is Shannon, I am 29 years old, and I have been dealing with bulimia for the last 15 years. I sought treatment for it (and other issues) about 3 years ago. I did okay but I put on a LOT of weight, almost 100 lbs it's been a struggle to get back down to a reasonable weight. I still have b/p episodes every couple months or so, but I suppose I am better than I used to be. Anyway, I am glad this group was created, and I hope to give and receive a lot of support here

RunawayCurves

My name is Laura from UK, been in battle with binge eating disorder since childhood and in treatment of some sort on and off for 25 years. I have reached a healthy size twice in my life but got huge again both times. I am a food addict. I refuse to give up hope though.

Mersie1

Nice to meet you! I'm 45 yo. Have had every kind of ED- have been doing well in recovery for almost a year and getting stronger, braver, calmer every day!

corriepants

Hi I'm Corrie- 23 from England, struggled with anorexia with bulimic tendencies for 6 years but I am recovered!
It's been 2 and a half years since I last relapsed, I now weigh about 137lbs rather than a low of 97lbs 4 years ago with a BMI of 15.
Thinking back to when I had an ED is so surreal, to think this disorder had so much over my mind and body, I didn't even care if it killed me.
I am so so proud of every one of you for sticking together and fighting through this! Hope to see the group growing!
Things get easier, don't let this become you.

Best of luck and huge hugs!

LostintheAmazon

I'm Rachel, from the USA, 20, 140 lbs. My heaviest I was 165 and my lowest I don't actually know-I didn't own a scale then, but my best guess is around 120. I have never been able/allowed to seek professional help (my mom controls my insurance and doesn't think I have a problem). I have noticed I started to show patterns of bulimia 5 years ago: massively overeating and then exercising VERY heavily and fasting for extended periods.
As my stress is increasing with school and other pressures, I am now noticing myself getting worse and leaning towards anorexia week by week. I am scared to eat, I work my day so I don't have access when I do want to. By the end of my days I'm usually too tired to be hungry. Yesterday was the first time that I said to anyone out loud that I have a problem and I need help. I am so afraid of gaining weight and no longer being "sweet, thin and sexy" for my own stupid self, and for my boyfriend, even though he tells me continuously that I am beautiful. He looks at me like I am the best thing he's ever seen and I am terrified of losing that. He knows that I'm struggling and is trying to help. But as soon as I try to get any kind of help from my family, they shut me down as looking for attention, before making jokes about my weight. They have done this my entire life and the last several years it has eaten at me worse and worse (pun somewhat intended).
So here's me, beginning my road to build the confidence to get some actual help, or, maybe so that I can fix myself before I need more help. Baby steps. That's how this goes, right?

Brookieb1326

Hey everyone, I'm Brooke from Minnesota, 21 years old. I have had an eating disorder since I was 8 but was just diagnosed in January of this year. I was originally diagnosed with binge-eating and overeating, but as I started treatment that changed. I have now been on all spectrums of the wheel. I stopped going to treatment about five months ago when I started law school. Before that I was doing very well and had pretty good control over things, but with the stress of school and not going to therapy anymore I digressed quickly. Right now I am still not at my heaviest, 273, but I have a long ways to go... I am unable to go back to therapy due to new insurance and needing a recommendation from my doctor who doesn't feel I need to go to therapy. I am hoping to find an understanding community who will accept me for who I am and help me along in this crazy journey we all call life!

aemfh1

Hi Hi - Ashley from MA - 27. ED since 14 or so, diagnosed around 24. started with Bulimia, which morphed to Body dysmorphia when I decided to get into bikini fitness competitions. Now struggle with anxiety, depression, BED with over exercising, extreme restrictions etc. I can feel great and in control for steady periods of time until a low feeling hits and sucks me back in to the negative tendencies. Working on getting back to a good place again.

CaeTroi

Hey, I'm Caelyn from NJ (raised in New England). I'm 21 and have been battling an eating disorder since I was 13 (or at least realized what I was doing to myself). I was on a healthy track when I entered my undergrad 3 years ago, but was proceeded to be told a year into that my weight (215lbs) was detrimental to the horse (I was an equine major). This triggered a relapse back into my anorexic, bulimic, and binge/purge tendencies. Although I have "most" of it under control right now through a massive support system. I find myself filling my days up so I don't have to eat, I work around 46 hours a week and am taking 5 graduate level classes. I'm hoping that I can lose the needed weight to look and feel better about myself, without losing my mind.

PermissionGranted

Good morning everyone! My name is Diane, 30 years old, 3 children, married 11+ years (12 in March) and I was recently diagnosed with binge eating disorder. I've been trying to lose weight since I was 18 years old when my weight increased 70lbs in 5 months during my first semester of college. I knew that I used food to cope but I never thought that I would have an eating disorder. Everything makes more sense now and I'm on day 5 of recovery. Its been extremely emotional and I'm being followed my a metabolic doctor. My weight 5 days ago was 242lbs, the highest it's ever been. I'm glad to finally have a name for what I experience with food and some help. I'm so glad to have found this group.

hungrigirlxo

Hi, I'm Diamond, 24, I've had bulimia for 13 years (wrote a little about it in my profile). I've been in recover for almost 2 years and this past year I was in an inpatient facility. I'm training for a marathon (and trying to get to my goal runners weight) while trying to recover so it's been pretty difficult. On my run days sometimes I get so hungry all I want to do is destroy the fridge. And then there's the days where i sit looking at a fridge full of food but i'm too scared to eat anything for fear of binging and purging so I just give up and wont eat for a few days. I dont have anyone in my life who has an eating disorder so no one really understands. I'm really looking for some support here so I'm glad I found y'all.

ekritter7

My name is Elle. I'm 18 years old. When I was 14 my anorexia nearly killed me before I wound up in a treatment center and learned to eat again. Unfortunately, I was checked out of the program before I learned proper portioning skills, and now I'm overweight- not by much, but enough that it bothers me and I'm uncomfortable in my body.

I'm here to get fit and shed a few pounds slowly and carefully. I hope to get to know you all and look forward to your support and encouragement as well as providing the same for you.

cadencemurray

Hi! Thought I would introduce myself. My name is Cadence and I am 20 years old. I have been batteling anorexia/bulimia for almost 7 years now. Due to some recent weight gain I have been having some health problems, and my doctor wants me to lose weight healthily, so here I am!

jamiepoo0202

I am way late, but I'm Jamie. I'm 39 and have struggled with binge eating, fast food addiction, bulimia and restriction for about 15 years. It's hard because I want to recover, but I also want to lose weight and the two don't mix often. I am trying to find a good balance. I also just want to not obsess about food all of the time.

cpetroff84

..I'm Christine. I'm 32, struggling with anorexia/bulimia and bed? 17+ years. Haven't used lax or diuretics in few months nor purged, my issue since trying to recover is the binging. I've also been homeless 5 Years and in constant survival mode bouncing around , im guessing that has a huge reason as to why the binging got bad/ maybe some' extreme hunger'? It was never this way before. I want to lose about half of what I gained since starting to eat again, but still want to eat like a normal person. I don't have family or friends really, the people I stay with don't understand anything so I just don't talk. I've also never talked like this in any group so I'm rambling
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PerpetualGlitch

Guess I'm here, too now. 33, female, mother, and wife... and currently sporting a rather ghastly BMI of 14.5. Today I reached for help for the first time, have an appointment booked with my gp in 4 weeks. I'm petrified.

Knowing how hard this is, I want you to know, I sincerely admire each and every one of you and I hope and wish you all get the help and results you want and need to be healthy and happy.

Hellylu000

Hi. I don't see much activity here... I'm Lainey. I'd love to make more friends.

Run4life375

Hey! I'm an active runner/outdoor enthusiast/ED survivor. It's encouraging to hear from other people who are battling the same thing.

I am making progress in recovery, but I'm still really strugging to balance my nutrition and exercise. I have good days... and I have horrible days. Right now, I'm trying to learn to respect my body and how far it can take me instead of always tearing myself down.

kaylaosborn7

Hello! I'm Kayla. I'm a recovered(mostly) bulimic, but have found myself straying back to binge eating after losing over 100 lbs in the last 2 years. I'm here to get my head in the game, lose more weight, and stop my binge eating, or at least better manage it, as I start my new life in July and move to another state with my kids to be with my long distance boyfriend of 2 years. I have a lot of motivation, but I am working on self control!

rosey0104

Hi Everyone! I'm Rosey. I've always battled unhealthy relationships with food but it spiraled into bulimia a couple years ago which I will always be recovering from. Health issues from birth have complicated a lot of things but frequent visits with a therapist and attempting to gain a healthier outlook on food, exercise, and life itself will help the ED and other depressions issues. Feel free to add or just message if you need someone to vent to.

Hanxa13

Hi... I have pica. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's a compulsion to eat non-food items or food items in an unnatural way. For me, it is paper, ice, soil and rust (though I will also go for plastic or metal or graphite... It's quite extensive). Especially paper as it is always at hand. I've had this to varying degrees since I was 8 and it is not related to any deficiencies. It's not a priority to treat right now, but it doesn't help when it comes to real food so I'm trying to tackle it to some degree.

I also have issues with depression and anxiety from past trauma. This makes eating really hard at time and impossible to stop at others.

LindsayWxGirl17

Hi everyone! My name is Lindsay and I have binge eating disorder. I am currently in recovery AND I need to lose weight for health purposes. I'm trying to navigate this journey without letting my weight decide my worth.

kms263

Hi I'm here because I'm struggling with a bad fall back in regards to a long term battle with food. People don't realise because I'm quite physically fit so I can submit to binges without people saying more than "cheat day?" Etc. The problem is when I try to avoid triggers people just push me obviously not realising that once I start I find it very difficult to stop. I've been so bad with binging and purging this week my mouth is all blisters inside but I don't know who to talk to as I don't think my bf understands how it feels (despite being very supportive) and I don't have anyone I feel I can talk to.

Tabbycat00

Hi, I'm Carolyn. I've been in recovery from anorexia since 1995. I had a set back after giving birth to my daughter in 2015. Although both physically and mentally I'm in a really good place right now it was humbling to see that I could still fall back into that disordered behavior.

grrrgirl

Im Kay and I have anorexia. Im 27 and just recently relapsed. I also have BDP which doesnt help at all. Feel free to add me.

CarvedTones

I am in the minority; I am an older guy. There are probably more of us than people think, but most won't admit it (mostly won't acknowledge that they binge).
I have had trouble at both ends of the spectrum - get overweight from bingeing and then go into extreme dieting mode and eating way too little. Right now I am working on the extreme dieting with some success - I have been within 15% of 1500 (the minimum for men) for 7 days in a row. That was after going two months of eating under 1000 a day.
Bingeing was late night "snacking" of then after drinking. I have been sober for 5+ months now, which helps, and have not binged in about 3 months. It has been less than two weeks since I was under eating.
I am type II bipolar and bingeing is mostly a depressed behavior. Current meds are helping keep me from being depressed as often or as long and are a big part of how I stopped bingeing and started losing weight.

livisuzanne

I'm Livi. I'm 27, I have anorexia and I also have bipolar1, and ptsd. I'm trying to lose weight that I gain over the summer due to a major change in medication, but I'm also trying to learn how to reframe my thoughts and behaviors regarding food and my weight. The support and understanding I have experienced within this group so far has been amazing!

Pittie66

I’m Allie and I am 51. I have been dealing with mostly anorexia since I was 13 although I went through binge eating and some bulimia also in my teens, twenties, and thirties. For the past ten years, I have managed my weight with over-exercising and restricting my food intake ( at times more strict than others dependng on the amount of stress in my life). Right now I am trying to find a balance between caloric intake and exercise and eating more food, especially foods I call “scary.” When I eat one of those foods, I immediately over exercise the next day to work it off and feel so guilty for eating it. I am seeing a therapist and have been on medication for years as I also have depression, anxiety, and migraine headaches. I am glad that I have found you all as you understand what I am going through and feeling. It has been a long time since I have talked or shared with others who have similar thoughts.