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Jeshie91
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Hi. Apologies in advance I can almost guarantee this is going to be a bit of a ramble.
My mental health diagnoses
Autism
Bipolar disorder
ADHD
Anxiety Disorder
PTSD
BPD
Had an eating disorder as a teenager. Basically recovered but it will always be there in my head a little bit.
Physical
Undiagnosed autoimmune disorder
possible connective tissue disease (in testing)
Chronic pain
Hip dysplasia
Bursitis
Sublaxed patellas and tracking problem
Chronic sinus and ear infections
Asthma
Malabsorbtion
Celiac (testing phase... test positive for the genetic test)
Undiagnosed stomach/intestinal problems (waiting to see specialist)
Dyspraxia
Auditory Processing Disorder
Basically theres a lot of weird in my brain and a lot of pain in my body so this whole fitness and weight loss thing is quite difficult.
My biggest issue at the moment is that my antipsychotic caused massive weight gain and insulin resistance. Have finally come off it and the insulin resistance is reversing itself. My system is still trying to figure out how hunger signals work and all the rest of the stuff that the zyprexa *kitten* up. Prior to this medication my blood sugar and insulin levels have always been perfect.
Now heres the hard part - My calorie goal is 1400 but I usually only get 800-900. I struggle to get more... like physically.... eating more makes me sick, I cant breathe (not anxiety... my abdominal organs press up against my lungs I think because when I eat a full meal (like for example I made a burger tonight) I will feel like I cant draw air in to full capacity, and im going to throw up. Feels a little bit like asthma but there is nothing constricting my airway. I tend to do one meal a day and snacks and LOTS of water. I dont have the spoons to make more than one meal and I have a thing about eating food thats been cooked and then stored in the fridge. It generally goes to waste once its been in the fridge more than a few hours because my brain suddenly thinks its disgusting.
Im also vegetarian, lactose intolerant (can have small amounts of cheese but no milk or cream), and due to the autism im very particular about my food habits, textures, cooking conditions, shopping.
Ive had a few people tell me im not eating enough. Im concerned that the 800-900 is going to prevent weight loss and keep my body in starvation mode. Im high protein, low carb because my system just does not cope with carbs well - doctor says I cant process them properly. I just cant sustain a higher intake level. It literally makes me sick to eat more.. and the only way I can get a higher calorie intake is if Im eating super high cal things like pizzas and such (and I dont like pizza).
But if I post about this in other fitness groups people just tell me to eat more, im not eating enough blah blah and i feel like they are angry at me and dont understand that im not trying to make excuses... im just trying to provide all the information aboout my situation. I know it all sounds kind of ridiculous. Im aware of that. Saying 'eat a second meal' isnt helpful to me... maybe once a week I could manage to get 2 meals in, if I were at like a family lunch or something,, but making and eating 2 meals a day, its just not possible for me at this point. Even if I could physically cope with the food prep (and I really cant if I want to do more than lay in bed all day. TBH a lot of the time I just have to lay in bed all day and i still am not able to do more than one meal a day even with having a rolling chair in the kitchen as well as my cane and service dog.), I just cant physically manage having that much food in me. I suspect I may have gastroparesis which would certainly explain why I have so much trouble having food in my stomach.
I just want support and suggestions that arent based around 'just eat more'. because its not that simple or easy when you are physically disabled.
My mental health diagnoses
Autism
Bipolar disorder
ADHD
Anxiety Disorder
PTSD
BPD
Had an eating disorder as a teenager. Basically recovered but it will always be there in my head a little bit.
Physical
Undiagnosed autoimmune disorder
possible connective tissue disease (in testing)
Chronic pain
Hip dysplasia
Bursitis
Sublaxed patellas and tracking problem
Chronic sinus and ear infections
Asthma
Malabsorbtion
Celiac (testing phase... test positive for the genetic test)
Undiagnosed stomach/intestinal problems (waiting to see specialist)
Dyspraxia
Auditory Processing Disorder
Basically theres a lot of weird in my brain and a lot of pain in my body so this whole fitness and weight loss thing is quite difficult.
My biggest issue at the moment is that my antipsychotic caused massive weight gain and insulin resistance. Have finally come off it and the insulin resistance is reversing itself. My system is still trying to figure out how hunger signals work and all the rest of the stuff that the zyprexa *kitten* up. Prior to this medication my blood sugar and insulin levels have always been perfect.
Now heres the hard part - My calorie goal is 1400 but I usually only get 800-900. I struggle to get more... like physically.... eating more makes me sick, I cant breathe (not anxiety... my abdominal organs press up against my lungs I think because when I eat a full meal (like for example I made a burger tonight) I will feel like I cant draw air in to full capacity, and im going to throw up. Feels a little bit like asthma but there is nothing constricting my airway. I tend to do one meal a day and snacks and LOTS of water. I dont have the spoons to make more than one meal and I have a thing about eating food thats been cooked and then stored in the fridge. It generally goes to waste once its been in the fridge more than a few hours because my brain suddenly thinks its disgusting.
Im also vegetarian, lactose intolerant (can have small amounts of cheese but no milk or cream), and due to the autism im very particular about my food habits, textures, cooking conditions, shopping.
Ive had a few people tell me im not eating enough. Im concerned that the 800-900 is going to prevent weight loss and keep my body in starvation mode. Im high protein, low carb because my system just does not cope with carbs well - doctor says I cant process them properly. I just cant sustain a higher intake level. It literally makes me sick to eat more.. and the only way I can get a higher calorie intake is if Im eating super high cal things like pizzas and such (and I dont like pizza).
But if I post about this in other fitness groups people just tell me to eat more, im not eating enough blah blah and i feel like they are angry at me and dont understand that im not trying to make excuses... im just trying to provide all the information aboout my situation. I know it all sounds kind of ridiculous. Im aware of that. Saying 'eat a second meal' isnt helpful to me... maybe once a week I could manage to get 2 meals in, if I were at like a family lunch or something,, but making and eating 2 meals a day, its just not possible for me at this point. Even if I could physically cope with the food prep (and I really cant if I want to do more than lay in bed all day. TBH a lot of the time I just have to lay in bed all day and i still am not able to do more than one meal a day even with having a rolling chair in the kitchen as well as my cane and service dog.), I just cant physically manage having that much food in me. I suspect I may have gastroparesis which would certainly explain why I have so much trouble having food in my stomach.
I just want support and suggestions that arent based around 'just eat more'. because its not that simple or easy when you are physically disabled.
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After I eat im physically exhausted, like everything i have goes into eating that meal. Eating a meal earlier than dinner is impractical if I want to do something with my day. Small meals I can manage. If I go out to eat with my family its a real struggle to stay concious and be able to move around after eating.0