I can't do it anymore!

MissMaggie102

Bulimia has been infecting everything in my life in an awful way for the past 2 years. I've had eating disorder problems since I was 12, but the binge and purge started then. My husband (now exhusband) left me I had a lot on my plate, and I used it as a way to cope. Since doing it I've lost weight, I've gained weight, but I can't do it anymore. It is such a disgusting habit that I've put ahead of everything else for way too long. I've spent money I don't have on food to throw up. Huge amounts of food that I just purge. I would choose b&p over hanging out with friends, trying to have/keep a boyfriend, anything. It's been my comfort and my worst enemy at the same time. I'm glad I found a group on here for ED recovery. It's so hard knowing what's 'healthy' and what's ED. I lost 75 pounds a few years ago and while I did it in a healthier way (eating healthier, working out), it got pretty obsessive. I don't know how to do 'normal' with eating. I feel so stupid that I have this problem. Any tips on how to work on being healthy and losing weight without ED taking over?

Kristineevans1

Stop trying to lose weight is my only advice! You need to get out of the binge/ purge cycle you have the rest of your life to worry about weight loss, seek therapy . If not best advise is get into a regular eating pattern don't let yourself get hungry and talk to your friends and family about it. You will probably find you will drop a bit of weight when you stop purging as it only gets rid of about half the cals anyway. Xx