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Lenascrivente
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16 August 2017
Dear all
I have been toying with MFP since last year but found out it reactivated an old eating disorder.
One year after, I decided to start again from mindset and I'm here for the long haul.
As most people with a past of eating disorders, I did manage to lose weight effectively in the past, and got it all back with some more .
The last time in 2012 I lost 20 kgs in 6 months, just through self-regulated eating, exercise and a lot of self-compassion and love for myself.
So how did it all creep up again , with a plus of 9 kgs?
Increased stress and emotionally traumatic events in my life, poor stress management and a lack of support systems to keep it up. From 2013 to 2017, I put on 29 kgs again.
So I am here to lose 45 kgs over 2 years, at a pace of about 2 kgs per month on average.
As by now I know that weight loss is not a linear process, I think I will use less stressful months to lose 4 kgs, and more stressful months to lose a minimum of 2. This will minimise stressing about plateaus and having to deal with difficult life moments that I foresee will be there, given my family situation with 2 members struggling against cancer.
Also my thyroid stopped working properly last winter and I am still adjusting medication so this should be taken into account.
This is how it would look like ideally:
100 lbs (45 kgs) = 20 lbs x 5 (9 kgs x 5)
Each goal is 9 kgs in five months.
GOAL 1
September 1st 2017 to January 30th 2018
From 106 kgs to 97 kgs - minus 9
reward: winter summer break somewhere sunny
Before September 1st I will post my plan for the first month and will keep logging in.
Please befriend me if you have success stories to share about losing 100 lbs, hypothyroidism and eating disorders.
Thanks!
Lena
Dear all
I have been toying with MFP since last year but found out it reactivated an old eating disorder.
One year after, I decided to start again from mindset and I'm here for the long haul.
As most people with a past of eating disorders, I did manage to lose weight effectively in the past, and got it all back with some more .
The last time in 2012 I lost 20 kgs in 6 months, just through self-regulated eating, exercise and a lot of self-compassion and love for myself.
So how did it all creep up again , with a plus of 9 kgs?
Increased stress and emotionally traumatic events in my life, poor stress management and a lack of support systems to keep it up. From 2013 to 2017, I put on 29 kgs again.
So I am here to lose 45 kgs over 2 years, at a pace of about 2 kgs per month on average.
As by now I know that weight loss is not a linear process, I think I will use less stressful months to lose 4 kgs, and more stressful months to lose a minimum of 2. This will minimise stressing about plateaus and having to deal with difficult life moments that I foresee will be there, given my family situation with 2 members struggling against cancer.
Also my thyroid stopped working properly last winter and I am still adjusting medication so this should be taken into account.
This is how it would look like ideally:
100 lbs (45 kgs) = 20 lbs x 5 (9 kgs x 5)
Each goal is 9 kgs in five months.
GOAL 1
September 1st 2017 to January 30th 2018
From 106 kgs to 97 kgs - minus 9
reward: winter summer break somewhere sunny
Before September 1st I will post my plan for the first month and will keep logging in.
Please befriend me if you have success stories to share about losing 100 lbs, hypothyroidism and eating disorders.
Thanks!
Lena
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I finally decided to log in today for the first time in 4 years. I have just started getting treatment for my eating disorder, and I know that in the past when my weight has gone up, calorie counting and food journaling has helped me control my weight, but it has also fueled the things I struggle with within my eating disorder, and it has not been great for me emotionally. Weight watchers was a bad experience because it was too public, but doing things on my own has been just as bad because it's too private, and I become obsessive about calories, and how to burn more calories.
I logged in at 1am while doing some deep thinking about my upcoming medication management appointment to assess how a new medication I'm taking for previously untreated PTSD is working, and coming up soon I see my nutritionist again. I went through a major medication change over the summer, and even though it was necessary, and I am doing so much better mentally, I gained about 35 lbs very rapidly. I have bipolar disorder, ptsd, and ADHD. I switched drs this July and it was determined that I was not on the right meds, and also needed to see someone to start treating my eating disorder, which also meant finally accepting that I have to actually deal with this.
I have stopped gaining weight, but I am really struggling to lose it, and I am struggling to accept that it's not healthy to lose weight quickly, and that this is all going to take time. I have hypoglycemia, so I know I need to take care of my body, and I know that I need to take care of my mind, so I feel very conflicted by what my eating disorder "tells me," and what I know I should be doing to be healthy, and stay healthy.
Right now my main goal is to be okay with myself, but also work hard to lose the weight I've gained, while trying to maintain a mentality that encourages me to focus on my health, and not just quickly losing weight. I know it's only day one, and I've only been getting help since October, but it feels overwhelming.0
