I put on 50lbs this month. Decided to go back. Now I'm signed up for a tournament this saturday.

Geocitiesuser

I really tried to get out of it, but they are good at peer pressure.

I'm depressed out of my mind. Fatter than I've been in years. Completely unconditioned. Now I have to step on the mat and get kicked in the head in an unfriendly manner in 4 days.

At the end of the day, it's probably "good for me", but I am usually depressed and down after tournaments when I lose, which is why I was trying to avoid this one. My chances of winning are basically zero.

I am so far out of my mind that part of me just doesn't want to do it anymore. I'm not nervous about the tournament, but I'm ashamed to do it when I'm so far unconditioned. In one month I did 8 months worth of damage to my body. Easily.

bingo_007

since the damage is done. I think its best to focus on moving forward with the right attitude and make a plan on how you can continue your weigh loss in a sustainable manner. Good luck with your competition on Saturday I hope the'anger can motivate you to fight better

Geocitiesuser

Yes and no. It's never good to fight angry. Anytime I have seen someone fight angry they always lose. Anger clouds the mind. A good fighter is in control of his body and mind.

Soy_K

it takes a huge amount of courage to turn it around and we are all rooting for you. it doesn't matter if you win or lose - just that you get back on it. we all screw up more than once. it's all a process. proud of you for moving ahead. you can do this.

Out_of_Bubblegum

Geocitiesuser wrote: »

Yes and no. It's never good to fight angry. Anytime I have seen someone fight angry they always lose. Anger clouds the mind. A good fighter is in control of his body and mind.

Absolutely true - a clear head fights best.

As far as your performance... clear your head of all expectations. Do your best, and whatever happens - if you are sure you are going to lose, you are setting yourself up for failure. If you go in with a clear mind, like the fighter in control of his body and mind... you will learn something from the experience, regardless of bringing home any trophies.

Valsgoals

You were in the mindset once before when you lost that large amount. I know it's really hard to get back into that mindset again. Especially so after faltering. That's what made me get onto MFP back in April. Sometimes I wonder if that mindset is a moving target making it something we're always having to work on. Using that analogy, it's almost inevitable to miss the target once in a while. I'm not saying that as an excuse I'm saying that as a way to come to terms with being imperfect. The only way to get back on target again is to get back up and keep aiming for it. Maybe this won't help for the tournament but maybe it will help you get back up and out of whatever is pulling you down.

On this subject I truely can relate. I've been trying different things myself to get my mindset back to full strength and pull me out of whatever I landed in that made me gain back some of that weight I had lost too.

Geocitiesuser

Will power is a limited resource It's definitely not infinite. Getting back on the horse is all we can do. It's not the first time I fell off, I'm sure it won't be the last.

Out_of_Bubblegum

I like to think of will power as a muscle. Exercise it often, and it grows stronger... but if you don't let it recover, fatigue will set in too.