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MaddyWeiner

Hi to anyone who stops by this group - I started this in a desperate effort to find other people who are going through or have gone through an eating disorder. I have hit both ends of the spectrum... in college I was undeniably anorexic and had a love of being thin and a tremendous fear of gaining weight. Fast forward four years, and now I struggle with binge eating. Most of the time, this occurs when I wake up in the middle of the night. Does this happen to anyone else? Anyway, I've gained a lot of weight back, and it's put me into a mindset of self-loathing and extremely negative body image. However, I've come to realize that progress comes in many forms - four years ago I probably would have keeled over from heart failure from running 6.5 miles nonstop because I was so thin. Today, that's not the case, but I definitely need to sort out some things in my life regarding diet and exercise. As a medical student, time is a highly valuable commodity, and I want to learn more about maximizing fitness in smaller windows of time - swapping out cardio for strength training, perhaps? Also, binge-eating is indicative of underlying emotional problems, so if anyone has any advice for healthy outlets, please share.
Again, if anyone has anything to share or just needs to vent/mourn/confess anything at all, this is the place to do it. Thanks friends.