What's Your Dream?

Every time I read about someone doing a triathlon or marathon I get a bit jealous, I think -- man, I want to be doing that. I don't want to be stuck on the couch sick and insanely fatigued and gaining weight. I have an auto-immune issue and everyday I fight fatigue, fight my joints and just feel like giving up, everything is too much. The laundry is too much - dishes haven't been done in two days but today I at least unloaded the dishwasher and did some Yoga. It's kinda weird that my dream is to be out running when my ankles are all swollen, arthritic and crap, and I have trouble breathing but I wish I had a day where I didn't feel like such a loser.

I hate leaning on "what I used to be ..." and "used to do" all the time. I wish I had something cool I could tell new friends about myself that wasn't a list of symptoms. It's really lonely being ill and support groups are fine but they also sometimes become identities "I'm the person with..." I think I've been using food as a coping mechanism.

Eh' just venting. Have a good night! Had a tough day but tomorrow will be better.

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  • supercpa999
    supercpa999 Posts: 403 Member
    Hi new member here
    I want to lose over 100 lbs and get down to 160. I also want to get into yoga and some fitness classes.
  • imminatotaro
    imminatotaro Posts: 13 Member
    @supercpa999 and @PositivePanda7 we are organizing a challenge for loosing weight and be feet starting the 7th of September with my coach , I`m also are a holistic healthy coach, contact me if you would like to participate , we use protein shake and MFP app to help count all calorie and minerals