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DimplesInProgress

Get out of the cycle. Was doing really well with remembering to eat and then not throwing it up.. But I was gaining weight.. And gaining weight when you are already fat just freaking sucks.. Got back up to 230.. Been skipping meals and living off of caffiene and cigarettes this week and have dropped back to 220. I hate this ****ing monster.

lewdug

I know the feeling with gaining weight when you're already fat. I'm obese and most likely heavier than you, so I know how it feels. I hope you're able to not purge and stop skipping meals soon. I personally don't have a problem with purging because the first and only time it happened to me, I got a horrific nosebleed. Needless to say, I stopped because it scared the crap out of me. Apparently, it blew a vessel out in my nose. Maybe you should increase your natural foods and have just a little bit of your favorites to keep you from going crazy from cravings. Don't deprive yourself too much, or your body will crave it even more. Also be careful with the caffeine and cigs, as both are stimulants, and nicotine constricts the blood vessels and increases risk of heart disease. As larger individuals, the last thing we need to do is increase our risk, and I also have hypertension. Just be careful. Please stay safe. I'm sure I'm not telling you anything you haven't heard before. But maybe we can help each other out.