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May 30, 2014

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  • catladyksa
    catladyksa Posts: 1,269 Member
    one more thing from me......I hate being sick!! Can't taste the food or enjoy whatever I cook. Can't exercise, can't do much of anything...can't even speak...lost my voice too! So I HATE being sick!!!
  • PatrickB_87
    PatrickB_87 Posts: 738 Member
    I hate that I spend so much of my time thinking about food or exercise. I hate that I obsess so easily. I hate that I feel stressed out about eating sandwiches because holy crap does bread ever mess up my macros. I hate that I give a rat's *kitten* about macros. I hate that if I don't get enough protein, I feel more tired than usual. I hate that it's so damn hard to get protein.

    I hate that even though I jogged a mile straight last weekend, I'm terrified to go out for a walk/jog with my half-marathoner friend tomorrow. I hate that I'm still nervous and feel out of place every time I go to the gym. I hate that I signed up for a free personal workout plan and no one has called me yet.

    I hate that since I change into workout clothes for walking home, everyone at work knows I'm trying to lose weight. I hate that people are commenting about it, even if they're usually nice things.

    I hate that my feet are covered in blisters from walking so much. I hate that I can't afford to new shoes and socks that might mean fewer blisters.

    I hate that depression and endometriosis ruled my life for so long.

    At first I thought I didn't have anything to say, but I guess I did!

    I can relate to all these things.

    I just bought some workout shirts because the amount i sweat in cotton shirts during walking is disgusting. They work great and I like they way i feel in them but the entire time during my walk when i was passing people I just felt like I was being jugged, like the underarm shirt was a sign around my neck declaring "fatty exercising," i imagined them wondering "I never knew they made that in a xxxl." Part of me want to be able to share this journey but another part of me wants no one to know till its all over.

    I hope you can save up or save for the shoes and socks, they are worth the money. It's been two weeks and I've had no more blisters, though my feet are still recovering from a months worth of old ones. The quickest way to kill any desire to get up and move is hurting yourself.
  • PatrickB_87
    PatrickB_87 Posts: 738 Member
    I know its not 12:12am so *****ing time has officially ended for the day but I had one more I wanted to share because it can be a major pain.

    I hate how crap myfitnesspal is at measuring calories burned for logged exercises from its database. I can't really blame it as its just a tool with simple estimations and can never really know enough to make the right estimation, but man when its tell you you burned 1,000 calories walking when you really only burned 600.... No one needs to be off by 400cal, that can break a day easily. I'm glad I learned that lesson early.

    Sorry thats my last one for the day.

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