Losing control

sapl31

I have struggled with food addictions since I can remember. Food has been my comfort and happiness. I have struggled with binge/purging since 16. I had gotten to a good place with food but it is over. After losing weight following gastric bypass, I thought I had a handle. For the past 8 months I have really been fighting again. I sneak food and eat things I shouldn't daily. I get up and eat at night so my family doesn't know. I am purging when I eat the wrong foods. I have started to gain a little and I know if I don't get a grip soon, I will lose control completely. I need to be held accountable. I need people to see my diary everyday. I am scared of the path I am headed down.