Its been a long week, psych appt this morning

weeziebeth

Its been a long week at work. Same 5 days, same 45ish hours, just long--challenging patients, families, social, and ethical issues. Also, heading into the last week of the summer semester and trying to finish up paper/presentation for a class I truly loathe. And so, of course, today I have my psych eval/clearance appointment.

I haven't really been concerned about this-the only thing to do is be open and honest and see what happens. I'm just mentally and a little physically exhausted and that never bodes well for new encounters with anyone. I've also responded to life's current stressors by going on a carb-bender the last 2 days. Ugh. This is probably the true source of my concern. If I can't get a handle on this and stop responding to stressful situations by falling back on old habits, this whole adventure will be nothing but an exercise in futility. Never-the-less, today is a new day...here's hoping today's choices will be better.

Hope everyone has a joyful, relaxing, and restorative weekend.

rpyle111

Hang in there! Recognizing the eating behavior is a big step toward controlling and then changing it.

You're right . . . make to day a good day, it's the only day you now have control over.

Good luck at your appointment. Ask the psych doc for suggestions.

Mangopickle

I really recommend monthly post op support group. My group is amazing. We range from pre op to 8 yrs out. We had a lot of pre op newbies this week and we discussed medicating with food and how WLS doesn't cure it. It is interesting that many pre op pts don't see themselves as medicating with food. Often they blame their obesity on poor food choices, work, home life etc. Those may get you overwt but obesity is most often due to medicating with food. The fact that you know this and accept it is huge. I meet regularly with my priest to help me deal appropriately with life, I go to support group every month and I take advantage of the MFP social support. My best advice is when you are feeling an emotion, FEEL IT! If you are pissed be pissed, bored be bored, angry, happy, sad, depressed, whatever, just feel it. Don't run away or try to suppress or make it better with food. Just be. I am practicing giving all the crap in my life into God's capable hands while I keep moving forward. An interesting thing happens when you don't medicate emotions with food....they pass. And the more you practice fortitude the more Grace is given to you. Your mind isn't muddled with suppressed unresolved feelings, you dealt, you moved on. Your thoughts are clear. you become more efficient in life and at work. For 34 years I have exhausted myself avoiding dealing with my life. I am so much happier now. And it is not like my life has been a bed of roses these last 2 years. Pretty much the top 4 horrible events in my life have occurred in the past 2 years since I quit medicating with food. Food would never have helped anyway. That isn't food's job. Living a rich full life involves death, pain, destruction and loss. It is the nature of the greater Matrix of Glory. I run to God now instead of sushi when the crap hits the fan. Good luck!