I was doing so good....

skywa

I was doing well for some time. Then all of a sudden all these new rules popped up. And i wasnt eating as much. I was suppose to do a refeed today and all i did was purge most of it up. I feel like the only way to keep food down is to eat as little as possible. I feel bad about it but ****....i just do it. I dont think twice about it, i just do it. Then it's done and i feel normal about it.

I feel weird when im not hungry, or tired, or dizzy. I feel like the thought are running too fast. Too much going on in my head.

I can't help but look in the mirror and pinch and prod at myself.

***random:
when i was purging today i noticed a sudden burst of red. I hadn't eaten anything red that day. was it blood? I wasnt sore or anything.....

cowlover22

The red prob was blood and it does hurt when you bleed on the inside.well occasionally it can but not usually. Well stop and take a look at things in your life right now. Is something new going on to trigger this all of a sudden? Do you see a therapist?And these rules where didthey come from?
Maybe try to write your thoughts down on paper and see if that helps out at all..good luck. sorry so short but I have to get ready for work..

lizdavis07

do you purge often?

i know the tissue in your esophagus is pretty sensitive and the acid from your stomach might be irritating your throat.

i'm no expert, but i use to purge a good bit back in high school and that would occassionally happen to me. I always kept it to myself and never seeked help, which i dont really suggest.

sorry you're going through this :-( I'm having a rough day as well...i've barely eaten 100 cals today and i already dont want anymore..it will get better though, i just know it :-/