My Struggle

MissAnjy

So, i'm dealing with an inner struggle right now.
Last week, I started week 5 of Turbofire and was banging it out, no problem. Wednesday, I had a disgustingly hard day. I'm currently going through a divorce, my twins have cystic fibrosis & we received horrible news about one of my son's culturing a deadly bacteria & are now doing aggressive therapy for the next 3 months, and the stress of it all was weighing heavy. After a long 8 hours at work, I couldn't even lift myself off the couch.

I struggled all week to find the time to work 8 hours, make dinner, give baths, and fit in 2 hours of physiotherapy for my kids all between the hours of 5-9. My workouts went to the back burner. I haven't worked out since Tuesday.

Now, I feel like a failure. I don't know how to pick it back up, and I don't know where to re-start from. I feel like I haven't really done the program, since I stopped currently. Kind of how I'd feel if I started walking during a marathon. I'd feel like I cheated myself and didn't really "run a marathon". That's just where my mind goes. Now Im kind of lost. How do I pick this back up. Where do I start off from? Do I go back to Wednesday of week 5 and pick it up from there?

Also, I'm on business next week for 4 days (Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday). I could be working anywhere from 8-12 hour days & living out of a hotel. How am I going to continue the Turbofire streak if I have to take a break AGAIN for those four days? I feel so lost about what to do.

JacciSimms

Oh MissAnjy here's a hug for you >:D< You're putting way too much pressure on yourself. You have a lot you're dealing with right now. Give yourself permission to relax from the TurboFire. Do it when you can. Having gone through a divorce myself, I know how stressful that can be. You have a lot more on your plate. While traveling, try doing some yoga or hit the gym for a walk on the treadmill or how about just laying in the bed and RELAXING (your mind a body) for an hour. Take care of you; your kids need you.

staceyGO

Oh my goodness, that all sounds awful. I feel for you darling. Do you have a laptop so you could do turbofire in your hotel room at all? I would start week 5 over again, fresh and clean. I hope your little one is ok! Most hotels have gyms, taking time of for valid reasons isn't something you should beat yourself up over. Maybe stick to the short HIIT workouts if you can;t find time for the longer ones??

Sending love and strength your way!!!

Eponine7

I responded to you on our friends wall, but just wanted to give you a big (((HUG))). I hope your little man is doing okay...I can't even imagine. It sounds like you need to cut yoursef a break from the rigid TF schedule--maybe you could shoot for 3 HIIT workouts a week for the next couple of weeks? Don't beat yourself up...you are doing great! Amazing mom!!

Eponine7

I responded to you on our friends wall, but just wanted to give you a big (((HUG))). I hope your little man is doing okay...I can't even imagine. It sounds like you need to cut yoursef a break from the rigid TF schedule--maybe you could shoot for 3 HIIT workouts a week for the next couple of weeks? Don't beat yourself up...you are doing great! Amazing mom!!

drbaska

MissAnjy - first off - Hugs to you. You are dealing with a lot! Don't beat yourself up. Second, as to how do you get back in the groove, just do it. Don't worry about being perfect. Don't worry if you do a Fire 30 or a Fire 45 - pick a spot and get back to it. I know you are totally strapped for time and drained of energy, but I really believe if you can fit in your workouts, you will be better mentally capable of dealing with all this other stuff.

Also, working on the road - I take my dvds and my laptop and do my workouts in my room. sure, I have to modify a bit, but it's totally doable. I get up and workout in the AM if I know i have meetings and dinners all day and night. If you don't have a laptop that will work, then go to the hotel gym. I did this one time and set a goal to ruan a 5k on the treadmill - I did that - busted it out, got my sweat on, and felt awesome!

Just know that we are here for you and you are a strong woman I can tell! Have faith in yourself and in God!

RheneeB

I just read your post and my heart goes out to you. I am going to be lifting you and your children in my prayers. Going through a divorce is so very stressful in itself but to have all of that other on your plate would be overwhelming for anyone. Don't be so hard on yourself and learn to forgive yourself for not being perfect!!! We all falter, whether it is in skipping an exersize day (or 2 or 3 or 4....etc), or eating one too many pieces of pizza......just pick yourself up, remind yourself why you want to do this and every day tell yourself that you are worth it. Every day is a new beginning!!!:flowerforyou: