The mental stuff
Kelseyyyy22
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I've managed to eat my BMR for three days now (before you lecture, I know it's not enough but this is a HUGE step for me), and I'm actually weirdly okay with that. Before going over even 1000 caused me to absolutely panic and workout. Now I'm even considering reducing my daily "typical workout" considerably. I've even eaten a few things that used to be on my scary list, like salmon. Ahhh! But I did it and it was delicious.
But I still have all the mental freakouts all day long even though I know that I'll be eating eating eating trying to catch up on cals and macronutrients later in the evening because I'm devoted to this eating almost-enough thing instead of starving. So today I ended up feeling famished all day long anyway and eating salad for both lunch and dinner and getting in a huge fight with my parents about it in a restaurant, which was awful. And then I came home and ate pie, and for some reason that was more ok with my brain than the bread that came with the salad!
Any tips on how to deal with this weird mental conflict going on??? I need to be able to deal. My parents also don't believe me/give me any credit for eating a little bit better since it's so not...consistant.
But I still have all the mental freakouts all day long even though I know that I'll be eating eating eating trying to catch up on cals and macronutrients later in the evening because I'm devoted to this eating almost-enough thing instead of starving. So today I ended up feeling famished all day long anyway and eating salad for both lunch and dinner and getting in a huge fight with my parents about it in a restaurant, which was awful. And then I came home and ate pie, and for some reason that was more ok with my brain than the bread that came with the salad!
Any tips on how to deal with this weird mental conflict going on??? I need to be able to deal. My parents also don't believe me/give me any credit for eating a little bit better since it's so not...consistant.
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Sorry really can't help - i've managed to cut my ED behaviours to hardly anything but the thoughts are all still there....
But it sounds like you are doing FANTASTIC! Well done you!0 -
Sorry really can't help - i've managed to cut my ED behaviours to hardly anything but the thoughts are all still there....
But it sounds like you are doing FANTASTIC! Well done you!0 -
Well you are prob going to have to prove to your parents that you are doing better. I am sure when you were active in your disease you were very secreative and prob lied to them so it might take a while for them to get the trust back.
Not sure what to say about your thoughts except maybe you didnt want the bread and the pie sounded good. You deprived yourself so long of those things that now you are finally allowing yourself to have them. That is wonderful..go with the flow and keep it up..0
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