Important step I took today

jess1992uga
jess1992uga Posts: 603 Member
edited October 7 in Social Groups
Saw my abusive ex at the grocery store for the first time in 2 years. It literally shook me to the core and of course made my PTSD and ED go crazy. As I sat down for dinner ED told me to cut off a little here and there of my sandwich (one from a shop ED has kept me from for awhile). ED and my PTSD told me I needed to hide and in order to hide needed to lose weight and eating that whole sandwich wasn't going to help me do that. I decided in that moment ED and my ex controlled my past, but they will no longer control my future. So with each bite of the sandwich I edged closer to recovery and to freedom from my ex and after several delicious bites...the sandwich and the voice of ED were gone. This is one day towards the rest of my tomorrows.

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  • I'm so proud of you, Jess. What good insight in your perspective that ED doesn't have your future.

    I can so relate to that feeling of wanting to "hide" from past experiences but I know the only way get past them is to see them what for what they really are and allow God to redeem them.

    I handed a bunch of them to Him today, in fact. Another step for both of us....:smile:
  • Wow, so honest. It's so inspiring how you are committed to being happy and healthy.
    Congratulations on transforming your life xoxo
  • jess1992uga
    jess1992uga Posts: 603 Member
    Thanks. We are all so strong and can all make strides like this :) Welcome to the group :)
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