5 am.
theroadto100
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I have to be up in literally... 4 hours and I cannot sleep. I went to the mall to find a dress for a baby shower tonight and I just looked hideous in everything and it killed me. And I came home and just moped all night even though my friends wanted to hang out then I tried to sleep but I realized if I put my arms too close to my body I can feel my fat on my sides and then I got really hot and it freaked me out because I'm ALWAYS cold so now I'm all "I guess I have too much fat on me" and I haven't stepped on the scale in a few days and I'm so scared that the next time I do, I'll see a disgusting number and okay my vent is done for tonight.
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The only thing going through my mind is "Stay away from the scale" that is my own personal biggest problem right now, I am trying to get myself to give mine up and only weigh at my doctors office, I see one of them tomorrow and the one that helps me with this in a week or so, I might give it to my doctor tomorrow, she will hold it form me, but I will then have to refrain from going and buying a new one, my scale is my biggest enemy right now. Hang in there, think about all the benefits of feeling better. Hope your days have been better since this post0
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yes I agree stay away from the scale. All those tjoughts are ED thoughts. They are not rationale. You have to challenge them..hope today is better.0
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