ED gets me down

thinkingthingirl

Im fed up of how self critical i am of myself all day every day. Im losing friends by not wanting to go out and im turning into a right hermit thats only focused on one thing...my stupid eating disorder. I know that many people who have ed also suffer with depression n that but my god im fed up of feeling low all the time.
I am trying so hard to get better and lose weight healthily. I do fine for a couple of weeks then i just get rocketed back to square one when something triggers me.
Today my friends wanted to meet up and do the whole lunch thing which was fine, i went and i smiled but i just didnt want to eat anything today. I was too low too. I then spent the rest of the meet with my friends with them complaining and moaning at me about how i always spoil things and the attention always has to be on me...Its not even that! with how i feel all i want to do is stay inside and keep to myself.
Sorry for the mini letting off steam.
What brings u up when things with ur ed gets you down? Or any advice as to how to control mood better.
*sigh*

DreaminOfAngels

I am very sorry you are going through this, it doesn't seem your support system fully understands what you are fighting with. Have you had any discussions with them about what your ED is and what it does to you? If you have had this discussion and they still don't seem to be supportive, then keep them as friends but try hard to find a support system or group that will be able to help and support you and doesn't help you crawl into your shell even deeper. This is not something any of us should be doing alone. I have only been in this group for a couple of days and I have found pretty good support on here.

I have the same problem with the "Being a Hermit" lifestyle, I am bi polar so mine goes from extreme highs to extreme lows sometimes within seconds of each other, I have a really great support system who knows all about these and just kind of wait them out with me which can take minutes, hours, days, weeks, months they are unpredictable and it is very hard but they tough it out with me. It is Crucial to have a good support system. Are you seeing any doctors, maybe some that prescribe? Are you on any anti depressants? These could be very helpful if you are not, but I guess most importantly are you seeing any medical professionals that can help you get through this, you should not do this alone.

This is definitely a great and so far safe place to let off steam, I have not felt unsafe yet, and keep us posted. I also have not figured out what helps to get my mood under control, although control is probably not the word we should use as I think many of us with ED have control issues. Try posting on here for support when you get down, but also find yourself a good support system to help during these times. Hope I helped at least a little