songs and poems

emrys1976

anyone have a song or poem that speaks to them in light of their ED? i was listening to a song i've heard a thousand times the other day and for some reason, every time i hear it now, i hear my struggles with food and weight and the obsessions and compulsions therein. here it is...

Modulation
by Ani Difranco

In order to say thank you to you
I must do it intentionally
But tonight with every breath
I can feel my death
As sure as I can feel my knees

You were my modulation
so that's what you will always be
We took each other higher
Then we set each other free
Yeah, we set each other free

Course, neither of us were wearing helmets
and our blood was just everywhere
And when the morphine kicked in later
The censors threw their hands up in despair
And that's when the truth came marching in and
Promptly pulled the plug
But you were better than any drug
You were better than any drug

In order to say thank you to you
I must do it intentionally
But tonight with every breath
I can feel my death
As sure as I can feel my knees...

seekingthepatienceofjob

Courage by Superchick

I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"

Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day

You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow

I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
........................................................................

Makes me cry :sad:

emrys1976

Makes me cry :sad:
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I can see why - that's pretty intense. I like the part about some days we're ok and some we're just not - that is so true.

seekingthepatienceofjob

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I can see why - that's pretty intense. I like the part about some days we're ok and some we're just not - that is so true.
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Yeah...it is like a roller coaster ride. Except it is not fun or thrilling.