I'm so frustrated.
theroadto100
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A year ago when I was losing weight the healthy way, it was SO much easier. I dropped from x to weight y in 7 months. But then I thought I still needed to lose and I developed my eating disorder but STILL didn't lose then I went to therapy and a nutritionist and eventually began to recover and went from eating a few hundred calories a day to 1200 calories a day whoopdeedoo.
Downside. I have put on almost ALL the weight. I'm back up to x and I'm miserable and I eat healthy and exercise and I can't lose a pound. I've been stuck here for a month. Asdlfkjasldkjf.
I finally got my period back after not having it for 6 months, so I'm praying that means my metabolism is back in check and hopefully I'll start losing again.
I don't know why I couldn't just be happy at weight y. I look at those pictures now and realize how skinny I really was.
A year ago when I was losing weight the healthy way, it was SO much easier. I dropped from x to weight y in 7 months. But then I thought I still needed to lose and I developed my eating disorder but STILL didn't lose then I went to therapy and a nutritionist and eventually began to recover and went from eating a few hundred calories a day to 1200 calories a day whoopdeedoo.
Downside. I have put on almost ALL the weight. I'm back up to x and I'm miserable and I eat healthy and exercise and I can't lose a pound. I've been stuck here for a month. Asdlfkjasldkjf.
I finally got my period back after not having it for 6 months, so I'm praying that means my metabolism is back in check and hopefully I'll start losing again.
I don't know why I couldn't just be happy at weight y. I look at those pictures now and realize how skinny I really was.
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the problem is that with your eating disorder you have upset your metabolism and normal rthymns - you need to just be patient and allow your body time to build back to normal ... it is not instant!!!
Be patient - you will get there!0 -
Im so sorry
I dont know how you feel...I havent been in your situation. I just starting eating healthy. Well, Im eating a lot more calories...And some days I am okay. Some days I dont obsess about calories or weight. Im not happy with my weight, which is why I joined MFP. I do have your mindset..."Why couldnt I be happy with my previous weight???" I feel like Ive screwed up my metabolism. I went up a lot on my caloric intake, I dont want to relapse. Now Im afraid I will be in the same boat as you...Some say it just takes a while for your body to adapt to new and healthy eating habits...I really hope that is true!
Its great that you got your period! Mine is so irregular, havent gotten it in a while, but Im sure I will because Im eating healthy. You sound like you are doing great in your recovery...Maybe gaining weight was your bodys way of telling you "Hey...you were losing weight in a healthy manner...you were doing great! You turned to your eating disorder, and it got worse.." Okay, so maybe those are my words...but I think it is true.
People can tell you that you are skinny, beautiful, gorgeous (and its true...)....but you will NEVER think so, not if you dont BELIEVE it yourself. I have told so many girls this, and others have told me this. My therapist would tell me to look into the mirror, and say "You are beautiful. You are smart, funny, nice. Dont buy into the lies you tell yourself" It sounds cliche, I know. I do this though...and sometimes I believe it. It helps more than you think it does.
You are gorgeous. You deserve more. Living with an eating disorder is HELL. And when you want to be healthy, you gain more weight than you lost. I may not be the best person to give you advice....Dont turn to you ED to lose weight. Eat healthy, lose weight like you did before.0 -
Yes I have been there but be patient b/c the more you screw with your calories the longer it takes to get back to normal. It took me over 10 years b/c I was constantly increasing and then starving myself. It takes 3500 calories on the plus side to gain one pound so could some of it be water weight? Also you body is holding on to everything waiting for that next time that it isnt going to get any food again...it takes time...try not to obsess over it~
And if you are turning to your ED there is usually more going on than just not wanting to gain the weight..Something must be bothering you to. It isnt always about the food0 -
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A year ago when I was losing weight the healthy way, it was SO much easier. I dropped from x to weight y in 7 months. But then I thought I still needed to lose and I developed my eating disorder but STILL didn't lose then I went to therapy and a nutritionist and eventually began to recover and went from eating a few hundred calories a day to 1200 calories a day whoopdeedoo.
Downside. I have put on almost ALL the weight. I'm back up to x and I'm miserable and I eat healthy and exercise and I can't lose a pound. I've been stuck here for a month. Asdlfkjasldkjf.
I finally got my period back after not having it for 6 months, so I'm praying that means my metabolism is back in check and hopefully I'll start losing again.
I don't know why I couldn't just be happy at weight y. I look at those pictures now and realize how skinny I really was.
Im in the exact same position as you are! couldn't have said it better myself. And I'm sure you're just as confused as i am. Im sorry i don't have any answers, but know you're not alone in this. My goal is to just keep eating the daily recommended amount, and to keep exercising so that my metabolism can go back to normal. Then hopefully ill start losing again, but in the healthy way that will actually keep me feeling energized. I hope I'm somewhat right !0
