Even in recovery, sometimes we slip.
logicandlove
Posts: 191 Member
So I've been in recovery for 2 years now, and even though I've slipped occasionally, I hadn't purged in 4 or 5 months, now. Then life turned into a giant trigger. My manager sat down to talk with me at work, then fired me the next day for some really minor reason, so I drank a giant sugar boba milk tea, ate half a dozen donuts, purged, and then ate a batch of cookies and had a bottle of wine to myself. And then I purged again later that night.
Granted, I'm back on track now, but it's scary knowing that even when I'm strong and doing well, those thoughts are still in the back of my mind, waiting for me to have a moment of weakness. It sucks.
Granted, I'm back on track now, but it's scary knowing that even when I'm strong and doing well, those thoughts are still in the back of my mind, waiting for me to have a moment of weakness. It sucks.
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It does suck, but maybe try to focus on the fact you hadn't done it in 4 / 5 months. I had a bit of a binge last Sunday and was really gutted (only been trying to recover for, like, 2 months). But I tried to think that firstly, it wasn't as bad as it used to be, and 2, I had gone 7 weeks without doing it. Then I made it my goal to accept what I'd done (which, in my example, involved logging it all) and move on. You *are* strong, and you're getting stronger. Keep going
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Oh my goodness. Bulimia takes such a hold over you doesn't it. It is like being a recovered alcoholic, you always have to be careful to avoid temptation.0
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That's hard, so sorry!0
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COngratulations on 4-5 monthes... that is amazing. I wish I could go that long. I think the longest I have been so far is maybe 2. I think it is awesome that you went that long with out taking a step backwards.0
