body image rant

lik_11

As I'm starting to really see the changes in my body, I find myself really frustrated. The size that I am now, is how I always believed that I looked- never seeing & acknowledging how big I had actually let myself get. At my highest weight, I didn't think about my physical flaws. Now- I find myself standing in the mirror pinching my fat- wishing it would just go away, already! (Totally new behavior to me.) The closer I get to my original goal- I realize I want to lose so much more. Although I know re-evaluating goals is important, I really believed that my body would look and feel a lot leaner than it does at almost 30 pounds lighter. It sucks to realize how fat I really was.

Jenn152

i think this is totally normal. i completely understand this one. Once i hit my goal, i think i will continue to just keep doing what im doing and see how far i can take it. when i stop losing weight.. then i will take that as my body saying, okay... thats enough :O) but yeah, i feel you on this one!

loseiteli

Yeah, I agree with Jen!! Its normal...I find myself doing it too...and I have a long way to go. :grumble:

kristen6022

I feel the same way. I took pics last night, you know the ones in the bathroom mirror wearing just a sports bra and bike shorts. I didn't realize how far I had come until I really looked at the pics. I'm nowhere near where I want to be, but I'm very near my goal weight where I thought I'd look too skinny. Nope, still some fat in places that needs to go. And I wondered why I didn't think I looked fat then? Even though the size on the tag said 16 I didn't think I was fat. I'm now a comfortable size 8 and I think I'm fat. Figures, right?

lik_11

Thank you, ladies! I was seriously starting to wonder if I have body dysmorphia, or something.

Jenn152

i thought about that too... i refused to believe that i was THAT delusional about my body to the point where i would be considered someone with body dysmorphia... but it crossed my mind. i think it will just take some time to fully acknowledge the body i see in the mirror now, to match the one that i ACTUALLY have. because... lets be honest, its pretty rockin! lol

ShannonMpls

I've caught myself doing the same thing. Now that I'm actually looking good (if I do say so myself, ha), I see all kinds of ridiculous flaws. Boo!

lik_11

Honestly- I don't believe that I'm delusional... but totally oblivious and lack of self-awareness accurately describe me- or did... 27 pounds ago??? *crosses fingers* Like Kristen6022 said- why didn't I think I was fat at size 16, but I do now in a size 12?!?

I love seeing ya'll talk about looking good and having rocking bodies! That's what we need more of!

Luckily- I do realize that I'm this much closer to my smokin' hot body!!! (Even if it still feels kinda far away....)

VanillaBone

I think it's normal...We make so many excuses for why we're was so big, and then when we started this journey we quit doing that. WIthout my warm and comfortable blanket of denial, I can see my body and it's flaws clearly. Just make sure you take a minute to honestly acknowledge your progress, too! More graceful fingers, delicate cheekbones, a waist that finally goes >in<...

shaunte92

It's totally normal and I'm in the same boat! When I first started losing weight I thought my goal weight would be 160. And while thats totally fine on a lot of women who are 5'10, I definitely still have a lot of work to do. You never know how your body will change until it actually does, so it makes since we can't predict what the exact weight is that we should be going for. PLUS, once you become health/fitness conscious, you never really can get enough... you always want to look/feel/eat/do better.