Introduction from a PMDD sufferer

porffor
porffor Posts: 1,210 Member
Hi, I'm Jane / Porffor (means purple in Welsh),
I'm from London but live in Wales, UK.

I'm 40. Have 3 gorgeous girls aged 13, 7 and 2. I'm married and a full time Psychology degree student. Ironic that seems now as I've been diagnosed with a mental health disorder PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder). It means that I am fine for certain weeks, bar a bit of anxiety over this situation, and very very low the week before my cycle and the week of it. I suffer a kind of brain fog for a few days, then suicidal thoughts, tiredness, insomnia (yes the two seem to like playing tag with each other), crying, anger, basically a all that comes with the type of disorder it is which is a mood disorder.

I started on prozac on the 1st May but it won't have kicked in, amazing how I found myself hoping it was some magic pill that would magically work faster for me.

Well anyway, it's hit me again after a few spaced out / tired days, but I am glad to have got through my end of year exams before it hit. I am home for 4 months now as we don't start back to lectures till 1st october so don't have the long drive that I have to Uni.

My husband has been struggling to accept I'm 'depressed' he took it as his fault or something in our relationship / family life, it's not and I hope (as i've tried) that I've made him realise that.

My weight loss has stalled and I've gained a bit since easter, hence my joining here, and trying to get myself back on track.. just slightly. I was really active (my friends who know think maybe I was TOO active) in doing 30 Day shred, P90X or such, riding a static bike and weights (light) but nothing is happening now and that includes riding my horse - who has had the entire winter off and spring up to date (with the exception of 1 week in which I worked him well). I am ashamed of that as he costs us money but I just don't have motivation for anything at the moment.

I've started a blog at mammyjane.blogspot.co.uk and gave myself a bit of a makeover - to help make me feel better about myself on my 'good weeks'. It worked in that sense.

Well, thats enough rambling for now.