Eating just to feel something?
jonzo21
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So I recently realized that I eat so that I can feel something. Flavor is a very strong stimulation for me, and I feel like a lot of times this overpowers any other sense. (Even sex unfortunately). Its my way of feeling and being able to sense something and get out of numbness. I'm not really depressed, I am pretty busy with school and work all the time so don't have much time for other relationships so I'm thinking this could be part of the problem. (But school and work are priorities so I can't do anything about that). I don't have insurance, so recommending me to get counseling is pointless. Get a hobby? The only hobby I've made time for is fitness and trying to overcome these eating problems through MFP. I look forward to doing Zumba as my exercise, and consider this whole process (including MFP) my hobby. But its still not enough of a distraction or stimulation to keep me in check.
I feel like once I start eating, I can't stop. I'll go back for 2nds and 3rds sometimes even though I know I shouldn't, its like consciously I'm not aware that I'm even doing it, the subconscious part of me blocks out all reasoning of "you shouldn't eat that" and I just impulsively do it. I purposely only pack a few snacks and a main lunch for school so that I don't have the option to continue. But even now, I ate my lunch and part of me wants to go into the union building and buy something more to eat. Or to eat my snack bar that I'm supposed to eat in a few hours before my workout.
You might be thinking... "maybe you aren't getting the proper calories in your diet"... and I thought about that too.. I've been eating pretty healthy the whole month (and making sure I eat my exercise calories so that I can net at least 1350 which is my goal. Although most of the time I go over this, but don't always record it.). When the day is about to end I freak out that I don't have any calories left because I already know something is going to possess me to go into the kitchen and snack on something and bring me over my calories for the day. I try to save at least 200 calories for this occasion, but I'm not sure if that's just instigating the problem.
Anyone else have this problem or any suggestions on how to control those impulses?
I feel like once I start eating, I can't stop. I'll go back for 2nds and 3rds sometimes even though I know I shouldn't, its like consciously I'm not aware that I'm even doing it, the subconscious part of me blocks out all reasoning of "you shouldn't eat that" and I just impulsively do it. I purposely only pack a few snacks and a main lunch for school so that I don't have the option to continue. But even now, I ate my lunch and part of me wants to go into the union building and buy something more to eat. Or to eat my snack bar that I'm supposed to eat in a few hours before my workout.
You might be thinking... "maybe you aren't getting the proper calories in your diet"... and I thought about that too.. I've been eating pretty healthy the whole month (and making sure I eat my exercise calories so that I can net at least 1350 which is my goal. Although most of the time I go over this, but don't always record it.). When the day is about to end I freak out that I don't have any calories left because I already know something is going to possess me to go into the kitchen and snack on something and bring me over my calories for the day. I try to save at least 200 calories for this occasion, but I'm not sure if that's just instigating the problem.
Anyone else have this problem or any suggestions on how to control those impulses?
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