So confused

yrollam1013

I have been struggling for a while with what seemed to be a relapse into my ED. Earlier this week I saw my dietician and showed her my intake, which is around 900-1200, usually on the low end and she told me I was doing a good job doing things in moderation!!??? I told how obsessed I've become, how upsetting unplanned intake and gained weight are, how I weight myself constantly through out the day and have superstitions about it, like I'll weigh less if it is in X spot, or if I push all the air out of my lungs I'll be lighter., or if I stand with my feet in this spot Ill weigh less. I really thought I was going down the wrong path but I guess not. Now I feel the desire to eat way less to make it apparent. My head keeps telling me now, that fat girls can't have eating disorders, or at least when the fat person is me. I didn't tell her my hair is falling out, or that my period hasn't come as I think that my medications are causing this. It is so hard to work on stopping when no one believes it to be true.

SmallestGoal

Have you talked to a therapist, psychologist, somebody else about these behaviors? While I know some dieticians can be great, they really aren't qualified to do more than offer advice on nutrition. She's looking at your weight and your health from the surface only, and if you're not telling her about all your symptoms (hair, period), she's not working with all the evidence.

You're having problems with ED behaviors and thoughts. That's not the nutritionist's area, so her opinion isn't really relevant. Please try and find a therapist or someone to talk to before things get out of hand.

yrollam1013

I do have a psychiatrist and therapist that I talk about these issues with. It just seems like we area always putting the flames out one fire quickly and then moving on to the next issue that arises without completely dealing with the previous issue. I will have to bring more focus to the ED behaviors next time. Thank you for your input.