I still have a way to go for my fitness but as you all know, the more you study about weight loss the more impossible it seems. Better to just focus on now, and work in what you can do each day and after a week upgrade from there.

3 months ago it was strength training 3x a week. A month ago it was adding cardio two days a week. Now it`s adding 10 min more a day. And three glasses of tea with meals. Last month was skipping dinner 3 days a week to keep my calories right, this week it`s portion control. I keep trying to find the right mix that will give me fat loss and a lean body. Eventually I get there, and I live every day in the process.

It also has me throwing out the junk and cleaning my house, not just to keep busy but to keep my soul squeezed. Me and Ekhart Tolle. Squeezing souls since 1992.

Getting consistent yields results, unfortunately my results are not scale or even tape measurable. Still don`t understand why it seems so easy for others. Just eat less, move more, blah, blah ,blah.

Giving up the expectations of others gives me more room for joi de vivre! I am not letting that go. It is way better than beating myself up, and no one cared if I beat myself up either. I just made myself feel bad.
The world looks like a different place when you stop making yourself feel bad. And yes, the intimacy is well, more intimate too.

Let it out, let it go, exhale, don`t wait, eat, love, don`t pray for the day you start to love your body. No one cares, but you.