I can definitely relate to this, I have gotten into self-destructive cycles so many times before, and it's very hard to get out! For me, being bored and/or lonely triggers a binge, and so can having too much to drink.

There are a couple ways I'm trying to solve my sporadic binging problem (it's way better than it used to be), but first to get out of your destructive cycle! You can't erase any of your past binges, but you CAN make sure that they happen less and less in the future. This is important- you deserve to feel better about your body, and you deserve to have all that hard work you put in losing weight pay off. Your body is already gorgeous and awesome right now, but it will feel and look better if you give it the love it deserves- by not binging. These are the kinds of things I try to focus on. When you have a healthy day, pay attention to how good your body feels, and focus on that feeling the next time you feel a binge coming on. Is a whole day or two days of feeling bloated and awful worth those brownies? Probably not.

It sounds like you're into working out- I know I can't work out the day after a binge, so is it worth having a binge if it means you're losing valuable time at the gym (which you've paid good money for)? Signing up for a race has motivated me- I want to binge less, because I know it will take time away that I could be training to kick butt in the race! Spending time on MFP is also motivating, and has honestly stopped me from binging before. Knowing there are other people who are losing weight and eating healthy really inspires me.

To avoid binges, figure out what your triggers are. I try to make sure that my weekends are busy and have structure- I tend to binge when I feel lonely/bored. I also make sure that I spend time around other people (usually my roommates) during evenings and weekends- times that I used to binge in the past. If I am with people, I can't binge. Drinking is a big problem for me, and I usually try to avoid drunk binges by not drinking too much... That's the most challenging though, because once you've had a couple, not drinking more is harder to control, and so is not eating! Ugh.

You should add me- we can be anti-binging buddies, if you'd like I am always around to offer support!