7 lbs :C

ObtainingBalance
ObtainingBalance Posts: 1,446 Member
edited January 5 in Social Groups
OK - so the start of November I weighed in at 153 - that was 3lbs more than October 1st .

So the start of the month (1-2 weeks) I drank a lot of water, exercised, and kept calories in check... .got back to 150

During the middle of the month I started struggling with binges again(I had maybe two November 1-2), and so far I had 11 binge days this month...

I binged today..... weighed myself later this afternoon and I weigh 157 lbs! I started at 165, I feel like my ticker on my page is now a lie (it says I lost 15 lbs); Think I am going to delete the ticker now. :(

I feel like crying. I hate these binges. Why did I do this to myself? Weighing made me want to eat more out of self pity, and I did.

If I don't catch myself this December I will be back at my start weight. No more screwing around.

I know my weight doesn't determine my self worth, but I feel so big. I'm short so 1 lb on me looks like 5!

I keep ranting... but sometimes writing my thoughts down help me. I just feel like I have not made any progress at all, and the small progress I started with on this site is being ruined by weight gain.

Hopefully some of it is water weight - but I had 4 binge days in a row. I know I can eat over 3,500 calories in a binge.

Blah. Sorry for the negativity!

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  • maro_p
    maro_p Posts: 57 Member
    I do not binge out of self pity. I binge out of boredom, stress and lack of self control in situations when I am out and having fun. I am easy to say 'sc*W it' in a moment and then spend the next two days feeling bad about what I did and either making it worse or trying to make it a bit better. November and October have both been a challenge but then I do know that they are the most difficult months of the year for me and I usually gain 5kg+ which then I spent the rest of the year trying to lose. So a couple of things that I am trying to do differently and found that help:
    1. Have low calorie options/snacks in the house so I do not binge in highly calorific foods. Rice cakes are the flavour of the month but dried fruit like apricots and prunes have also helped.
    2. Drink a lot of water/tea. Every time that I feel I want to eat I make myself a cup of tea. If I want to eat after that i go to step 1.
    3. Hit the gym to burn the calories. Does not always compensate but it is better than sitting on my bum
    4. Do not give up. Log (as accurately as I can) every single day no matter how bad it was. If you look at my diary you will see it is full of days where my net is more than 2500+ which looks awful (I think ppl will ask me what the hell I am doing here but then it is no ones business)
    5. Do not give up. I keep thinking that if I gave up and did not log, try to exercise etc every single one of my days would have been a binge day but I just would not have known it.
    6. Think positive. Keep track of the good days rather than the bad days. How many good days did I have this month? That is how many binge days I did not have by doing what I am doing,

    Keep it up girl.
  • ObtainingBalance
    ObtainingBalance Posts: 1,446 Member
    Thanks... thats helpful advice. I just don't get encouraged by the scale going up. I wasn't expecting 7lbs, I assumed I was back at 153 maybe.... I need to drink A LOT of water and exercise.

    I'll get back on track eventually...
  • towens00
    towens00 Posts: 1,033 Member
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