Well every year for the past few years it has been the same. I have set a goal to lose weight. I have even lost an amazing amount before. However 2012 ended up being horrible and I not only gained what I lost but even more. My mother passed away at the age of 47 on October 1, 2012. I miss her badly and I feel almost like a huge part of my heart is gone. My mom was 16 when she had me. I always thought that we would become old ladies together. My kids are 7 and 10 and now don't have their Mammy anymore. It is rough. I know that they miss her badly every single day. I got depressed badly. I was my moms caregiver till her passing. I started turning to food again and gained a lot of weight in 3 months time. It sucks that I allowed myself to go that direction. I have to get back to losing weight so that I can live a long and happy life with my husband and kids. I don't want to go down the same path that my mom sadly ended up going down. She had heart trouble and also weighed a lot.. We have High Blood Pressure, Heart Disease, Diabetes, Cancer, and much more that runs in our family. On the path I am on, I am asking to get all of that. I want to make a change badly because I want to be with my kids and watch them grow up and start families of their own. My husband and I love to go fishing, and camping. I want to eventually go hiking but in the shape that I am in now, I feel like it would not be that great of a trip for me. I want to lose weight so that when he and I get to the age to retire we can go fishing, camping, hiking, and just enjoying our lives to the fullest. My husband just got a Motorcycle and I want to go on a road trip with him. We can do with now with what I weigh but it would be easier on him if I weighed a lot less. My husband is a very skinny guy. My dad started losing weight and now weighs less then I do. That is a slap in the face for me. I am proud of my dad and he is doing a great job. I just can't believe that I was always smaller then him and now my dad is smaller then me. It motivates me to get off my bum and get going though. I am ready for the weather to warm up so that my husband and I can get back to fishing, and camping. My 2013 goal is to lose 52lbs. If I lose more awesome but I am going to just focus on the 52lbs.