I don't have the muscle mass you do, but no one would ever think to call me delicate or willowy! I'm 6 ft and very broad across the ribs/back/shoulders. Very linebackeresque. I've never been smaller than a 14. It's disappointing, but not much I can do about it.

I think as you lose weight, not all of it will be fat. Some muscle is lost in the process too whether you want it to be or not. So you may not be 180lb of lean body mass when you get a little lower.

Thanks for the pic compliment! It's deceptive when I'm in a picture by myself. When I'm next to other people you really see it. Even in that picture for example, my bra band size is a 40. I feel like the Hulk sometimes.

My two cents though, we judge ourselves more harshly than anyone else does. When you are a healthy weight for your height, people see healthy. No one who sees "healthy" is spending time wondering what the scale reads for you. So lose until you feel you look healthy and forget about what the number on the scale says.

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