I'm worried about how bad the loose skin will be. What if I lose a load of weight, hold in all the loose skin with lycra leggings and tight fitting tee shirts, and I end up going to bed with a man who likes the look of me? Once all that lycra is peeled off and my flab flops about, YUK! At least if a man goes to bed with me now he knows I am huge and gets no surprises when I undress!

My biggest fear was death from the strain it puts on my organs but then I realised if I didn't start or at least attempt to exercise, I could die anyway.
I have been assured by my doctor that if you take it easy, death is just my silly paranoia.
Hey, I'd rather die drying!

My biggest fear now is that I will not make myself proud. I have targets and visions already set in my head and I don't want to let myself down.

I thought lose skin was only if you lost it fast...oh geez. A friend of mine lost over a 100 pounds and looks amazing but she changed we no longer had things in common so it has been hard and difficult to be friends. She said that she lost alot of friends and found out that people really want to sabatage you when you start losing its like they are used to who you are and dont want you to change either because they dont know what that would look like or you made them feel better about themselves and now you will be doing better and not there to make them feel better. THe process reveals peoples true intentions. I fear that process and also what to do with getting the attention again and becoming that main stream attractive girl. I know what I look like and I know why I get the attention I get but its scary to think that I would be treated like a skinny girl some day having to ignore stares and now that people are looking at you even when you dont want them too...I mean it is similiar to now but I just cast it off as a weight thing but I dont know how I would handle that. I don't want to be like poeple I saw on tv that lost all this weight and then turned to alcohol or drugs and created worse problems for themselves. What if look old when I lose the weight? I have seen that with people on the biggest loser. What if I am prettier fatter than skinnier? what if I lose all this weight and still cant accomphlish my dreams? I dont fear not succedding because I know I will start again. Dieting isn't my biggest fear...weight loss surgery is my biggest fear.

My anger is my fear especially when it comes to the shallow attitude of people. They will start acting like I'm more worthy as the weight goes, and that makes me angry and want to say f' the world.