So sorry to hear your story. My husband passed away from brain cancer almost 7 years ago. We did everything together, so it was very hard, esp. the first couple of years. I feel I am doing well now, even though I do still miss him every day.

It is understandable that you have unanswered questions due to the suicide. I can't imagine how hard that must be for you. You're challenge is going to be to learn to live with the questions to which there are no answers in this world. We all have them. You just probably have more than most. And, that's okay. You just have to work through them until you can live with them.

I found journaling my feelings helped a lot. And, running became the thing that allowed me to get off the anti-depressants. Exercise really is good for the body and soul.

It is good that you are ready to start making a positive change in your life. That is truly a giant leap forward, one step at a time.

As you can tell, there isn't a whole lot of interaction on this site, which does disappoint me. But, if I can be of any help or motivation, please send me a message, or post on here. I try to check the threads often. You can add me as a friend, if you'd like.

Good luck in your journey. Be proud of yourself for taking this step.:flowerforyou:

Dinah,

I hope this can get going again too. I agree with the getting out there and doing something. Exercise was the way I got off of my anti-depressants. I knew I didn't wan to stay on them for the rest of my life, so exercise was the replacement, and it worked.

I'm sorry for you loss too. I don't hate many things, but cancer is one of them. It takes so many loved ones way before they should go and affects so many others.

Glad you are doing well.