Extreme Binges
Graelwyn75
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Sometimes when I binge, they become, basically, planned and extreme. This usually happens just before my period, presumably from an imbalance of hormones and a lower mood. On these occasions, I will literally buy in boxes or large bags of all of the food types I often crave. As an example, my most recent binge shop involved a pint of Ben & Jerry's cookie dough ice cream, a box of 26 mini brownie bites, a packet of 4 granola slices, a box of belvita live yoghurt breakfast biscuits, 300g bag of chocolate buttons, 140g hersheys cookies kisses, 230g peanut M&Ms, 2 slices of cheesecake, 2 choux buns, a box of little madeira cakes and 2 carrot cake cupcakes. I tend to go for texture as much as taste. I also ordered in pizza (something I hardly ever do as I am not that big on pizza). Obviously, my stomach couldn't take all of it at once. I purge. But all of that lot was gone within a 24 hour period, essentially. That is an insane amount of calories.
The sad thing is, I bought the food, then went and had a cappuccino, a sandwich and a piece of carrot cake in a café and realised after that I was full and didn't need anymore. But I still took the binge food home. And I still binged on it, even though I was aware that I was still full, that I should go to bed and that I could just leave it there and have a bit each day instead. Yet I still binged. It is insane. I put off going to bed every night. Not sure why. Maybe because there is not enough to occupy me in the day, not enough in my life that brings me pleasure worth getting up earlier for.
But what gets me is this overwhelming desire I get, to have some of everything. In the past, I would have added doughnuts, flapjack and muffins to that list. Just to be sure I had some of every type of sweet food.
Does anyone else have binges that go along these lines?
I actually did this everyday for 6-7 weeks last year, and it is what caused me to reach my current weight... an emotional trigger in that instance.
Now, it usually lasts a day or two, before my TOM, with any other binges being more minor and generally healthy foods.
The sad thing is, I bought the food, then went and had a cappuccino, a sandwich and a piece of carrot cake in a café and realised after that I was full and didn't need anymore. But I still took the binge food home. And I still binged on it, even though I was aware that I was still full, that I should go to bed and that I could just leave it there and have a bit each day instead. Yet I still binged. It is insane. I put off going to bed every night. Not sure why. Maybe because there is not enough to occupy me in the day, not enough in my life that brings me pleasure worth getting up earlier for.
But what gets me is this overwhelming desire I get, to have some of everything. In the past, I would have added doughnuts, flapjack and muffins to that list. Just to be sure I had some of every type of sweet food.
Does anyone else have binges that go along these lines?
I actually did this everyday for 6-7 weeks last year, and it is what caused me to reach my current weight... an emotional trigger in that instance.
Now, it usually lasts a day or two, before my TOM, with any other binges being more minor and generally healthy foods.
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yep, around the TOM too, only went into the shop for some ingredients to use at work and a little amount of chocolate...
i decided i wanted all the sweets i like, all at once, so ended up buying 2 huge bars of chocolate, share bags of chocolate treats-2 different kinds, and a bag of fruit skittles.
i ended up eating a large majority of that on my own sharing a little with the boyfriend.0 -
Phew, glad I am not the only one.
I would have thought, in a binge eating group, that some would be suffering severe binges, but then I know a lot of people in mfp do consider a simple case of overeating a binge so the concept of eating thousands of calories over would be alien to them.0 -
When I binge I eat like that...I don't purge, though, so at some point my belly hurts so much that I have to stop. Lately I can't handle the sugar in it's pure form...like chocolate. Anyway, the thing that has stopped me most of the time is an visual I have from a Dr. Oz episode. I'm not sure if you see his show in the UK...it was a picture of the inside of the belly of a binge eater who died while binge eating.. Dr. Oz showed how the stomach looked before the binge...and after - how all the organs in the abdomen were squished and pinched and unable to function properly. I actually never really thought about where all the volumes of food I ate went
Now, when I start to get really full, I get that picture of that gigantic stomach stretching out and over the whole area and it definitely puts a damper on the eating.
But, what I do when I overcome that image is to eat to pain level, and then feel bad and go about my business until I can eat some more and pack it in again. and again.. this can go on for a while. March 2nd was the last time I did this and it was not anywhere near as bad as it has been in the past - only 8,000 extra calories.....
When I think about my past binge eating, I feel so sad that I did that to my body. Not pints of icecream, but gallons - not at one sitting, but by the end of the day for sure. And bags of peanut M&Ms. And packages of French cream horns, and , well lots of stuff like that. 3 or 4 vanilla creme donuts from Dunkin Donuts. "These are a few of my favorite things....."
I don't want them lately and I don't want to want them ever again.
I'm 59 years old as of yesterday and I have been doing this all my life
I'm really fortunate to be alive.
So, yes, I eat like you, but since I don't purge, I have to wait longer than you do to finish the bag of whatever......
and I get really fat.0
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