Anyone annoyed at their hubby?
projectxreborn
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I am. I have been having a really bad month of overeating...and I mean free for all eating
and so obviously feel terrible physically and mentally. Have had lots of issues with my son
and have been comfort eating...Anyway, I was looking at my husband yesterday and I
realized how he has, over the last 13 years, improved with age. I mean, he has gained
some weight as well but he has not let it get to the horrid point I have. He has
gotten more and and more handsome. This is a good
thing and I am glad but it just makes me sad how I have been unable to do the same
for him. I mean, he tells me he loves me and I know he would never say anything
to make me feel bad about myself, but I do. Yesterday I passed the mirror in the
bathroom and it was not only my body that saddened me but my face as well. It has changed
so much as well and I want to be my "normal" self again but these many pounds I have to lose
are so overwhelming. I am not annoyed at my husband really, but at myself. He's a wonderful,
wonderful man yet I just need to find a way to deal with the guilt of getting this fat so
that I can lose it. Sorry, not trying to be woe is me. Just frustrated at my self sabotage. Frustrated
how much I want to be healthy and not getting there yet.
and so obviously feel terrible physically and mentally. Have had lots of issues with my son
and have been comfort eating...Anyway, I was looking at my husband yesterday and I
realized how he has, over the last 13 years, improved with age. I mean, he has gained
some weight as well but he has not let it get to the horrid point I have. He has
gotten more and and more handsome. This is a good
thing and I am glad but it just makes me sad how I have been unable to do the same
for him. I mean, he tells me he loves me and I know he would never say anything
to make me feel bad about myself, but I do. Yesterday I passed the mirror in the
bathroom and it was not only my body that saddened me but my face as well. It has changed
so much as well and I want to be my "normal" self again but these many pounds I have to lose
are so overwhelming. I am not annoyed at my husband really, but at myself. He's a wonderful,
wonderful man yet I just need to find a way to deal with the guilt of getting this fat so
that I can lose it. Sorry, not trying to be woe is me. Just frustrated at my self sabotage. Frustrated
how much I want to be healthy and not getting there yet.
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Self Sabatoge.... Yep, I understand. My husband has an addiction to nicotine, but not food. He's gained a little weight, too - but nothing like me. I married in 1997 at about 250, and gained to 351. In 2002, at 351 pounds, I had gastric bypass & lost down to 229. Then gained 60 pounds back. In December 2011, I started my journey at MFP at 289 pounds. I've lost ALMOST 50 pounds, but the last two months - I've just lost my drive to log a whole days food. And Exercise - what's that! Not part of my day....
We're friends on MFP projectxrebor - are we friends on Facebook. Maybe we can encourage each other. Talk to each other about some plans to GET BACK ON THIS! Private Message me thru MFP and let me know your thoughts.... Kristy0
