ED and DID
InspirationIsTheWord
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So I'm unsure if anyone can relate to this...
I *used* to have Dissociative Identity Disorder. I technically guess I still do since one of my girls is just dormant and not introverted.. but she's not here.
I feel like I'm losing control without Jess and Rick. My eating disorder was actually much more controlled, yes they'd eat - Rick especially - when they were out but when I was out I was VERY good... now without them I'm binging all the time and not working out and.. I just don't have motivation.. my eating disorder is so much worse without them. I kinda felt like I HAD to do that stuff to counter act what they had done (and not done).. now I just have no motivation to lose weight.. I binge all the time.. I sit on my fat lazy *kitten* all day..
I *used* to have Dissociative Identity Disorder. I technically guess I still do since one of my girls is just dormant and not introverted.. but she's not here.
I feel like I'm losing control without Jess and Rick. My eating disorder was actually much more controlled, yes they'd eat - Rick especially - when they were out but when I was out I was VERY good... now without them I'm binging all the time and not working out and.. I just don't have motivation.. my eating disorder is so much worse without them. I kinda felt like I HAD to do that stuff to counter act what they had done (and not done).. now I just have no motivation to lose weight.. I binge all the time.. I sit on my fat lazy *kitten* all day..
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Hi,
I do not and do not know anyone in real life who has DID/MPD so I cant relate im afraid, but I dont want you to feel as if youre being ignored, as this post has been here for some days now.
I dont know anything about DID really, but arent Rick and Jess just parts of yourself? So isnt that drive or passion or whatever you want to call it, still inside YOU somewhere? You are the ''host'', right? Im not sure if Im saying this as eloquently as I want to, but some part of you should be able to 'tap-in' to the good and bad points of all the alters, no?
Do you mind me asking which eating disorder you have? If you dont want to say, its fine, but I dont want to be encouraging you to follow the habits of alters who were starving themselves for example.
I know you probably think Im being really useless! LOL sorry! But maybe it would help to either post here/PM or think to yourself why you have started acting this way since Rick and Jess have left? I dont mean to sound silly, but are you comfort eating because a part of you misses them/the protection they gave you? Have they been gone long? Is there anything else going on in your life right now that youre finding particularly hard to deal with?
And my most basic point, coming from a bulimia nervosa background, is that you will be more likely to binge if you are excessively hungry inbetween binges. You may notice you eat less if you eat more frequently but try to limit calories, say 200 calories, 6 times a day for instance...now thats just a random example, most people think 1200 cals a day is too big a deficit, but thats another debate for another board! lol
Sorry if everything I said sounded like utter crap, just trying to throw out some ideas. Hope someone with DID can relate soon!!
Charlie xx0
