Hi zeltoria. I just sent you a friend request. You can encourage me. I found my friends by joining groups and finding people who I could connect with. I also read the Message Boards and found people who I could relate to and requested they be my friend. You can always unfriend those that don't turn out so well. It happens. Good luck!

treat yourself to a new waterbottle that you totally love. I bought myself a new one today and I have gotten my 8 glasses today.

I bought a new Lifefactory water bottle after work today. It was expensive, but I've been wanting one for a long time!

Feel free to add me if you can tolerate my crazy diary right now. It was difficult always having people telling me I need to eat this or that, or more after I had my gallbladder removed, and even before that since my food issues have been around for a couple of years. I had tried to make it clear, so people weren't wasting their time telling me how great fiber bars are, or greek yogurt, when I have to be careful with fiber, and can't have dairy. I am primarily No/low FODMAPS to help with my issues and then there are some other things that bother me too. This past week I have been having some of these things, 1. to see how I do with them after surgery and 2. because if I'm going to feel deprived and have chocolate, I might as well have healthier things even if they come with symptoms. I do a lot of "picking and choosing which symptoms I want to deal with today". After my surgery fats became a big issue, even healthy fats, so I aim for 20 instead of the 40 mfp has me set at, or I have a lot of pain. (stemming from common and other ducts). I eat 6 to 8 times most days to help with bloating and all, and so with all this, I haven't been eating more than 1200 in the last two months.I am never feeling hungry except when I have too much chocolate/sugar and not enough protein to help counter it. I want to eat more, and it's my plan to get their again, but with all my experience in the last almost five years with losing weight, I'm quite convinced that my maintenance is at 1300 - 1400. I have done the eating more stuff and everything, and this is just the way it seems to be for me.

Updated to NOTE: Just to clarify, I do not have any problems with people offering suggestions and constructive criticism. It just got overwhelming, repeatedly explaining, and not having anyone understand the situation I'm in with food. I spent well over a year on here before, learning SO much from people hear regarding food and fitness, I felt fantastic for 2 1/2 years after losing most of my weight the way most people here feel one should, before my health took a big turn.

With all that said, if you read far enough to catch my questions, I want to know if Food Should Taste Good Multigrain chips are considered clean or non clean? Sometimes I have regular chips when trying to stay away from chocolate. (which didn't happen yesterday, but it's gone now and I"m excited to be done with it.) But I usually have 5 of FSTG at work, with a banana. Not a lot of options for me to pack food. Plus I have a lot of rice, especially rice cereal. If I have macaroni or anything it's usually brown rice gluten free. And Rice cakes, but they are brown too. I kinda feel like I'm not going to worry about the cereal at this point. IF I could have things the way I want I wouldn't have it. But I have so little I can rely on. I haven't had soda since surgery and that was a huge battle for me before, so sugar is my main concern now.

Another thing I do is track my weight and measurements weekly on a spread sheet and total my inches for the week.

I have just started writing more personal news-feeds on mine and others.

Hi everyone. Feel free to add me, if you like.

I have been eating on a smaller plate it is from my china set the plate that is sandwich sized The set has that size a salad size then a dinner size.

I have learned over years and years that it is impossible for me to avoid the food in my home. So unfortunately for the other members of my house hold I don't often let in anything junk related in and I don't buy it. I find that if I have to go to the store for it I wont most of the time. If I do go to the store for it I must really want it. So when I get it in my head to seriously work on myself. Or just start feeling icky from what I am eating all the junk goes. There are a few things I keep that others eat that I don't. But nothing that I really crave or enjoy enough to eat. So when I get in a baking mood I bake eat one slice or one cookie. give half away to the neighbors or work ( hehe) and then the rest is up for grabs by the kids. When I come home from work if it is still there it is garbage. Amazingly the kids wipe it out. lol. I have noticed the less sugar they have the better their moods as well. even though they don't want to admit to it. Most of the time they are rooting for me to eat right which makes it so much easier. They have also learned a lot about portion control as well. I wish I had a picture of their faces when they realized that the small bag of chips they eat are not one serving or that 2 slices of bacon was. I also want to mention I have a friend who works as a server and she always asks me if I want a salad with my dinner. which usually comes with fries. It helps to be supported I could use a lot more support as well.

So my dietician recommended a therapist after my last session... She asked why I felt the need to eat the food that I know is bad for me. She made a good point. I mean i know its bad for me based on calories, its processed, and I'm sensitive to it as well. Meaning not only do I feel the guilt, but my body reacts in a way that I feel and notice too.

Care to share some thoughts on that? I think its a good idea. Mainly because the new eating is a huge transition, to go along with the other huge transition in my life of the hubs retiring from the mil and us switching roles. Just wondered if anyone had any experience with a therapist helping with weight loss