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almosttime14
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Happy to find a group like this, im sure it will be a weatlh of knowledge and a great support! Hope to offer that to others as well!!!
My highest ever known recorded weight was 376lbs.... That was in November 2010. Mind you, this was my weight after working out and making better choices for about a month...I may have been as heavy as 400lbs but I was scared of the scale. However, I knew I would have to get one to track my progress. Boy did seeing that number sting. I knew I was big, just never wanted to put a number to it. I have been over weight my enitre life... it's always been a struggle for me. Like alot of people that are overweight, I'm an emotional eater.... when things are bad, I eat. When things are good, even great, I eat.... it's a horrible cycle. I have to say I gained maybe 100lbs or more over the course of a year or two... I was really going thru some **** in my life and I felt like I had no one to turn to. Except food. That was the one thing that has always been there for me.... the one constant. The one thing that has never let me down... Right. It's the reason I'm in this predicament in the first place. Forced to figure out and reflect on how I let myself get to this point....To get so out of control.... Facing things that I have put away for so long, wishing to never have to address again... but I have to... to become the better me. The real me. Fastforward... to February/March 2012. Things were going better, I had been working on myself and my health. Im now weighing in at 313lbs. I felt pretty darn good about myself and the work I had done... then I find out that I'm expecting my first baby. Hit me like a ton of bricks! This was not planned. I know, I know, why wasn't I using some kind of protection... well for the people that don't know, being obese makes it very hard to become pregnant. My husband and I figured we wouldn't need it for a while until I started losing more weight. Well, guess, my body was ready for it, God thought so too. I continued to eat right, occasionally indulging as every pregnant woman should
I also continuted to work out until I was about 7 months pregnant. My delivery weight was some where around 375lbs... not sure of the exact number, i just know I almost cried because it was dang near my ORIGINAL weight... After healing from a C-Section and all the great stuff that comes with having a baby, I weighed about 346lbs. A gain of about 30lbs isn't too bad, especially for someone that was and still is fighting the fight against the bulge. All I know, is it could have been worse. My current weight is 326.8. That is as of this morning. I am doing the best I can until my surgery date comes.Hoping for Mid February. Yes, I am getting gastric bypass. I am waiting for the insurance approval and then it's off to the races. I have had to undergo a 6 month supervised/monitored weight loss and lose 5% of my starting weight, 348.6lb, which is roughly 17lbs. GOAL MET. Also, I met with dieticians, psychiatrists etc to make sure that I am sound for the surgery. GOALS MET. I am anxiously awaiting this part of my journey to start. I know it's going to be rough. and for people that want to say this is the easy way out... I ask you to try being almost 400lbs, and carrying a child at the same time... being OBESE for nearly 25 years... not being able to do things with you baby, your husband, your family. NOT being ABLE to wear a SEATBELT!!! on the plane and in THE CAR! it's not cosmetic for me. It's a safety measure and way to help me live for my baby, my husband and not have THEIR life restricted by my weight. It restricts me, it's completely unfair for it to restrict others... especially those closet to me and the ones that don't deserve it. I want to be happy. I want to be normal. I want to me. I should have the news hopefully some time in the next week or so. I'll keep you posted.
My highest ever known recorded weight was 376lbs.... That was in November 2010. Mind you, this was my weight after working out and making better choices for about a month...I may have been as heavy as 400lbs but I was scared of the scale. However, I knew I would have to get one to track my progress. Boy did seeing that number sting. I knew I was big, just never wanted to put a number to it. I have been over weight my enitre life... it's always been a struggle for me. Like alot of people that are overweight, I'm an emotional eater.... when things are bad, I eat. When things are good, even great, I eat.... it's a horrible cycle. I have to say I gained maybe 100lbs or more over the course of a year or two... I was really going thru some **** in my life and I felt like I had no one to turn to. Except food. That was the one thing that has always been there for me.... the one constant. The one thing that has never let me down... Right. It's the reason I'm in this predicament in the first place. Forced to figure out and reflect on how I let myself get to this point....To get so out of control.... Facing things that I have put away for so long, wishing to never have to address again... but I have to... to become the better me. The real me. Fastforward... to February/March 2012. Things were going better, I had been working on myself and my health. Im now weighing in at 313lbs. I felt pretty darn good about myself and the work I had done... then I find out that I'm expecting my first baby. Hit me like a ton of bricks! This was not planned. I know, I know, why wasn't I using some kind of protection... well for the people that don't know, being obese makes it very hard to become pregnant. My husband and I figured we wouldn't need it for a while until I started losing more weight. Well, guess, my body was ready for it, God thought so too. I continued to eat right, occasionally indulging as every pregnant woman should
I also continuted to work out until I was about 7 months pregnant. My delivery weight was some where around 375lbs... not sure of the exact number, i just know I almost cried because it was dang near my ORIGINAL weight... After healing from a C-Section and all the great stuff that comes with having a baby, I weighed about 346lbs. A gain of about 30lbs isn't too bad, especially for someone that was and still is fighting the fight against the bulge. All I know, is it could have been worse. My current weight is 326.8. That is as of this morning. I am doing the best I can until my surgery date comes.Hoping for Mid February. Yes, I am getting gastric bypass. I am waiting for the insurance approval and then it's off to the races. I have had to undergo a 6 month supervised/monitored weight loss and lose 5% of my starting weight, 348.6lb, which is roughly 17lbs. GOAL MET. Also, I met with dieticians, psychiatrists etc to make sure that I am sound for the surgery. GOALS MET. I am anxiously awaiting this part of my journey to start. I know it's going to be rough. and for people that want to say this is the easy way out... I ask you to try being almost 400lbs, and carrying a child at the same time... being OBESE for nearly 25 years... not being able to do things with you baby, your husband, your family. NOT being ABLE to wear a SEATBELT!!! on the plane and in THE CAR! it's not cosmetic for me. It's a safety measure and way to help me live for my baby, my husband and not have THEIR life restricted by my weight. It restricts me, it's completely unfair for it to restrict others... especially those closet to me and the ones that don't deserve it. I want to be happy. I want to be normal. I want to me. I should have the news hopefully some time in the next week or so. I'll keep you posted. 0
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Hello. Lots of support here from people who know this isn't the easy way out. Feel free to add me as a friend. Hope you get the news you are waiting to hear.0
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From reading your post, I'm convinced you are bound and determined to get healthy and you'll be successful (and happy). I shared so much of what you posted - especially the 'seat belt' experience (I was so embarrassed)!. Next month, I will celebrate my 2 year RNY anniversary! My simple advice is to use those experiences you've endured to empower you to keep going. Your dreams to be normal and happy will be attained if you focus on that. Easy for me to say '...been there, done that...' but I'm speaking from the heart and from similar experiences. You can do this and we are here to help you on that journey. Best of luck. :drinker:0
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Glad you are doing this!! You won't be sorry. I really encourage you to keep up the work and stay connected to others who are doing the same. You will meet several that don't think its a good idea. You need to ignore them and do this for yourself.
I wish I had done this when I was younger! But at least I have done it now...I'm on my way (finally) to becoming a healthier person. Since surgery, I'm no longer on diabetes meds, blood pressure or cholesterol meds. Only medications now are for severe pain from osteoarthritis and a antacid to keep the pouch healthy. Plus, of course, several vitamins.
You can do this. Keep posting and asking questions. People on this site are very helpful & encouraging.
One thing I have had to do is stay away from the scale. I was getting really depressed when my losses weren't as good as others. So now, I'm just staying with the program and watching the clothing sizes decrease. The number doesn't matter as long as I see changes in my clothing sizes. I'm trying to weigh only once per week for recording purposes.
Take care & keep us updated on your progress as well.0 -
Thanks so much for the encouraging words! I will definitely use my past to motivate me. Im glad I found this group, look forward to learning alot and sharing!0
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