Sometimes, I scare myself...
ahendz
Posts: 16
I would just like to start off by warning whoever is reading this that in this post I am going to mention some of the foods I just binged on, so if that could possibly be a trigger for you then stop reading!! I just binged, currently feel like *kitten*, and don't want you to do the same because of me!
Anyways, as I just said, I just binged. It's now 11 am, and I've consumed well over 5000 calories. I'm home for winter break, and woke up about an hour ago to find my parents gone and my sister still sleeping. No big deal, I thought. I went into the kitchen, and decided to treat myself to a breakfast pastry we still have leftover from Christmas, and have a greek yogurt along with it. Well, 1 breakfast pastry turned into 2, which then turned into 3. Then I decided I needed something crunchy, so I had some crackers and cheese, figuring there were worse things that I could eat. Well, then I saw the peanut brittle sitting on the counter, and devoured that. And then another breakfast pastry. Then a pop tart. Then a banana. And then finally a cinnamon roll.
And you want to know the sickest part? I'm not even full. Had I not heard the garage door open, signaling my parents return, I'm 100% sure I would have kept going.
Anyways, as I just said, I just binged. It's now 11 am, and I've consumed well over 5000 calories. I'm home for winter break, and woke up about an hour ago to find my parents gone and my sister still sleeping. No big deal, I thought. I went into the kitchen, and decided to treat myself to a breakfast pastry we still have leftover from Christmas, and have a greek yogurt along with it. Well, 1 breakfast pastry turned into 2, which then turned into 3. Then I decided I needed something crunchy, so I had some crackers and cheese, figuring there were worse things that I could eat. Well, then I saw the peanut brittle sitting on the counter, and devoured that. And then another breakfast pastry. Then a pop tart. Then a banana. And then finally a cinnamon roll.
And you want to know the sickest part? I'm not even full. Had I not heard the garage door open, signaling my parents return, I'm 100% sure I would have kept going.
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I totally understand…once you get on a roll you can't feel full anymore. Just let today go and start fresh tomorrow
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Listen hun, you binged, you made a mistake, it happens. I feel as though I'm in the same shoes as you because I always go CRAZY when I'm in private. I will literally wait and wait and wait until the second my household leaves so that I can feast. And I think it's all mental leading up to that. Because at first, that whole time that I'm waiting, I'm like, "I'm going to indulge in this and it'll be so good, I just don't want anyone to see me." But then, it just turns into an eating fest. I'm right there with you, but it's something that we have to overcome and simply try to better ourselves and attack that thought in our mind, that's what I try to tell myself, even if it is so pressuring and happens to win 99% of the time. The only thing you can do now is to pick yourself up and treat yourself right. You've got it! Best of luck!0
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wow this sounds like EXACTLY what I have been dealing with. My relationship with food has turned into this secretive, guilt-ridden habit that I have literally no control over. I too will wait until everyone leaves and then snack/binge uncontrollably, even if I start out with reasonable intentions or a specific, healthy snack in mind I always end up just standing in front of the fridge/pantry eating everything. and the guilt is so bad I haven't been able to turn to any friends or family for help or support! I am constantly coming up with eating plans and ways to motivate myself to eat normally but they rarely last longer than a day. I don't know what to do anymore I'm at the end of my rope and I've gained almost 10 lbs in the last 3-4 months!!0
