hi

I added you both, I'm trying to get over bingeing, made some progress but support is always appreciated, and I'd like to lend my hand as well-
xo
M

Hello, I am new to this group and here is some information about me!

Name: Sheena
Age: 29
Height: 5'3"
Your current weight: 138 lbs
Your goal weight: 125-130 lbs

I want to be healthy. I don't want to focus on being thin or the ideal. I want to focus on finally, for once in my life, looking in the mirror and being happy and comfortable with who I am.
I may not be fat, but I don't eat healthy and don't treat myself healthy.

I have been using MyFitnessPal for years but have never had friends doing it or any form of accountability. I feel I need that. Here is some of my history. MI suffered from eating disorders beginning in 2004, the summer after my first year of college. In high school I played on two competitive softball teams and exercised 20-30 hours a week, easily. In college, I didn't play sports, gained the freshman 30! and freaked out. Since then I have battled anorexia, bulimia, and binge eating.

I live in Houston and joined a two-month intense out-patient program for borderline personality disorder patients (I don't quick have BPD, but it is the closest of the diagnosis). With 15 hours of therapy a week, I have nearly overcome my problems but I still relapse occasionally and have many relapsing thoughts. With crappy health insurance currently, I am not able to do my weekly or monthly check ins with these professionals to keep me accountable.

WORKOUT: Today, I have finally found a form of working out that I enjoy and I have a beautiful boyfriend who knows that I need to workout -- for my mental health and anxiety -- who helps pay for the classes while I am only part time working. I do Krave Maga 4 times a week -- usually the martial arts class 4 times a week and twice a week I also engage in the 30-35 minute META class which is conditioning and strength training. Two days a week I walk on the treadmill, uphill at 3.6-3.9 mph for 45 minutes (and occasionally I will job a little). I have a really bad back -- one back surgery and it has been suggested I have a second so I can't run much. Sunday I give myself one day off.

EATING PLAN: My goal is to net 1400-1500 calories a day, Here are my two problems -- I eat WAY too much sugar. For instance, I love Clif bars for heavy workout days, but they have 23 grams of sugar. I just bought two new boxes though. SO I was going to eat only 3 a week instead of 5 a week. On days I eat Clif bars I will have an egg for breakfast, and days I don't have Clif bars I will have a Special K bar for breakfast -- until I get rid of these. I also usually eat a little candy at home, less tan a serving through the day, and my nightly dessert is more than a serving. So I want to cut back by at least half on these random sweets and keep my dessert to just a serving or cookies or ice cream or whatever. I rather not live than go without sugar completely, so this is my plan to get started at least. I plan to start this on Ash Wednesday (March 5).

WEIGHT OBSESSION: To try to not be depressed about weight, I don't count calories on special occasions -- my mom's birthday bash, valentine's day, Christmas, a day of a wedding perhaps. Recently though, I have had one of these days or one day with a binge per week. Last weekend I had a Casino night at my mom's church, which we went to for her birthday, and I didn't track food. Then I did pretty good all week. And last night (I did start my period) but I have been craving Menchie's fro yo for a week so we went for it. My boyfriend knows when I have been obsessed about something for this long, it is better to fulfill the craving -- but I still go overboard. So I need to reduce these binge a free-be days.

I need some accountability. Somebody to help look at my food and give me advice and suggestions. I will do the same for you. I want to meet some new people and I look forward to supporting each other.