I made it past the half way point. Today is the end of day 16. Feeling good. But today I was jealous of everyone that can have the crap. But I didn't give in. I reminded myself how good I feel. I can do this.

Tomorrow is my birthday and one thing that I wanted to do was go to dinner with my husband. We go out to dinner every couple of weeks, but this time there weren't any kids. I wasn't tempted by bread or dessert or even soda. I had a plan, ate large meals made at home for breakfast and lunch. I preplanned my meal ahead of time when I viewed their menu on line. I feel really good. We had a great time. Tomorrow will be day 21 for me. They say 21 days for a behavior change and I think this way of eating and making time for my meals has become a part of me.

I keep having dreams about what I am going to eat. Combining different foods together. My husband jokes about how this way of eating is all about planning. I say that he is right. I did dream around my birthday that my husband had picked up some bakery stuff and an ice cream cake and in my dream I was so let down and disappointed that he would try to sabotage my goals. LOL. Thankfully it was just a dream and he didn't do that. I actually got flowers for valentine's day and a date to a restaurant that was compliant for my birthday. I am thinking about the end of my whole 30 a lot. I want to reintroduce foods and then do this again for lent. I have found that I enjoy this way of eating and thinking about food. I fear falling into old habits if I stop, but will test the waters during the reintroduction phase.

We have a friend who raises a pig for us. It is a small farm, they are family raised, and treated well. No hormones or antibiotics. My kids enjoy going to see them as they grow. It has been some of the best flavored meat. We would like to find someone to raise a cow for us or even buy a 1/2 cow, but it is too expensive. That's where we buy locally raised beef and I only buy from the grocery store if I have to. There is such a difference.

3 more days left and all I can think about is how I am going to reintroduce foods and which ones I want back. And I am sick so I just don't even have any desire for food. So thankful for bone broth. I did eat lunch and dinner though.