Im feeling hopeless and want to give up
Makoce
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ive struggled with binge eating almost my entire life.
Its how I got almost 70lbs over weight, as I would eat literally 5,000 calories a meal until I almost puked.
I have been doing good over the course of the year with eating what I want in moderation, and Ive had a few slip ups .. okay, a lot of slip ups, but Ive still managed to lose close to 63 lbs.
Now that Im transitioning to maintenance my binging from the extra food has SKY ROCKETED.
I couldnt control my hunger and just downed every sugary carby thing I could find.
I decided two weeks ago to do intermittent fasting 16:8, and eat a more primal diet to the best of my ability on my budget.
While it's not perfect and I do still eat things with hidden sugar because its what I have .. Im feeling hopeless.
Switching my diet has made me realize what being full feels like.
I am now almost always full. Its great -- BUT, now im always depressed/highly unsatisfied.
I just want to eat processed stuff, candies, icecream, etc.
The fact that Im telling myself I cant ever have it in my life again is making me obsess and want it more.
BU Im afraid if I allow myself a "treat" once a week or something that Ill slip up.
I was doing some research on carb and sugar inspired binge eaters, and most people said that moderation is almost impossible.
Being 21 and having my entire life ahead of me, "forever" makes me panic and want to cry and just give up now.
I know setting your emotions on food is ridiculous .. so what its just icecream, why cant something else make me happy, how is that going to fuel your body, and what is the nutrition behind it? The answers to those things are obvious to most, but not to me.
Everyone has told me counseling doesnt really help, and regardless I dont have the health insurance to cover it anyway...
What do you guys suggest? I just really needed to rant...
Its how I got almost 70lbs over weight, as I would eat literally 5,000 calories a meal until I almost puked.
I have been doing good over the course of the year with eating what I want in moderation, and Ive had a few slip ups .. okay, a lot of slip ups, but Ive still managed to lose close to 63 lbs.
Now that Im transitioning to maintenance my binging from the extra food has SKY ROCKETED.
I couldnt control my hunger and just downed every sugary carby thing I could find.
I decided two weeks ago to do intermittent fasting 16:8, and eat a more primal diet to the best of my ability on my budget.
While it's not perfect and I do still eat things with hidden sugar because its what I have .. Im feeling hopeless.
Switching my diet has made me realize what being full feels like.
I am now almost always full. Its great -- BUT, now im always depressed/highly unsatisfied.
I just want to eat processed stuff, candies, icecream, etc.
The fact that Im telling myself I cant ever have it in my life again is making me obsess and want it more.
BU Im afraid if I allow myself a "treat" once a week or something that Ill slip up.
I was doing some research on carb and sugar inspired binge eaters, and most people said that moderation is almost impossible.
Being 21 and having my entire life ahead of me, "forever" makes me panic and want to cry and just give up now.
I know setting your emotions on food is ridiculous .. so what its just icecream, why cant something else make me happy, how is that going to fuel your body, and what is the nutrition behind it? The answers to those things are obvious to most, but not to me.
Everyone has told me counseling doesnt really help, and regardless I dont have the health insurance to cover it anyway...
What do you guys suggest? I just really needed to rant...
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Just a quick reply. I have not had bad binging problems for a couple years, but I still do binge occasionally and it is always sweets that gets me. For Lent, I am cutting back on my sugar but one thing I have learned from different eating disorders is NEVER to cut any food out of my diet. So I am making a conscious decision to cut back. There are some sugary items I can have out in the open and resist, there are some I need in a drawer or pantry, and there are even some that I still don't trust myself around at all and my boyfriend has a locked box he keeps candy in. It sounds ridiculous, but it is what works. I try to plan what food I am going to eat the whole day in the morning or the night before. And I always measure out my food then eat it, instead of eating out of a bag or box.
Anyways, I am all for moderation as I can't imagine a life worth living without sugar. I know some people say cutting it out completely is actually easier than just cutting down on it, but I am choosing just to try cutting down because I don't want a life without chocolate and cookies and ice cream. That is my two cents!0 -
What can I say.
First don't fast! That will make you want something even more.
Try clean eating. Cut the sugar, but don't cut the good carbs. And in a clean eating lifestyle (not diet) you can have sweet thing! You can have chocolate, cakes, whatever you desire, but in healthy versions! That will help satisfy your "hungry" for trigger foods.
But beating binge eating is a path. You will have slip ups. It's normal. You just have to remember youself that you will not achieve a life where you will never allow yourself the food you want (even the worst ones). Maybe it will end up on a binge, maybe not and you will be able to eat it in moderation. But you cannot have a life of "running" from certain foods. Don't fear them! Just control them
(Is easy to talk I know. I am a clean eater. I still crave for certain foods that I don't eat anymore. I still have ocasional binges. The good thing is, in a healthy lifestyle, the binges don't have so much impact in your body (if they are ocasional). They will have an impact on your mind though. Unless that you realise, as I said, that this is a path. You will have more binges. But don't give up, because one day you will realise, the binge is gone!0 -
Makoce,
I'm halfway to my weight loss goal. I lost about 60 lbs, and I've recently gained 10 back due to 2 weeks of binging. I haven't found a way to stop yet but I'm doing a lot of internet searching tonight and it led me to check out this page and your post. Have you had any luck since you posted this a week ago? Thanks for posting anyway, it's just nice to know that other people out there are going through the same thing. Also, I find it inspiring that you beat your binge eating disorder long enough to reach your goal weight
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