Boy, I am still amazed at how much impact my eating will have on other aspects of my life. Or do other aspects of my life affect my eating? I can't tell which sometimes. But this week is a good example. I have had some things hanging over my head that I needed to get done. The previous week I was sooo tired so much each evening after work and used that as an excuse so as not to complete these other things. And I was trying to get my eating more under control again after eating pretty much anything and as much as I wanted during the previous few months except for a week here and there. But last weekend, I just decided I needed to change my eating - was tired of being large and wanted to be able to do the things I used to do when I wasn't. At the same time, I thought, I need to get these things done. Enough with putting them off. I know I will feel better when they are done. So this past week I have been really good with my eating - have felt better physically and had more energy. I also completed some of these things that I had put off, and not feel more competent and positive. More in control overall.

Which happened first to impact the other? I am not sure. But this has happened many times in my life. My eating is out of control and so are my finances. Then they both get under control at the same time. Sometimes I have thought getting my finances under control has helped me get my eating under control and sometimes I have thought that it worked the other way.

But I guess the real thing is that out of control in one area of my life affects being out of control in another area of my life. Also, at times I think that I have had taken on that victim role. Feeling sorry for myself and feeling like life is too hard to deal with at those times. Feeling like cutting out certain foods, or trying to eat less is just too much for me, and I need more money and don't get paid well enough. etc. Whenever I let those types of thoughs take over, I want to give up. I stuff my face. I don't care. But I cannot let that way of thinking stay or it will consume me (like I consume food). It is not true. I am lying to myself and trying to look for an easy way out instead of facing my problems and dealing with life. These experiences of more than one aspect of my life coming more under control along with my eating show that I am capable. I can do what I set my mind to do. And things in life are manageable, not only for others, but also for ME.

I am sure others of you can relate to this and I'd like to hear some examples from your lives - they can help us all!