So off track!
BodyByChipsAhoy
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So for lunch today, my pre-planned salad turned into a chicken salad sandwich, potato salad, Doritos and 3 oatmeal raisin cookies. And a Coke! You bet your butt I tracked it all though and by making some adjustments to my planned dinner and snacks, I will be about 160 calories over for the day.
I ask myself why?
For one, I let myself get way too hungry. I was pretty pleased that I had my planned breakfast and snack and was full. But then I was working full speed ahead and before I knew it, I was ravenous. We have an awesome cafeteria where I work and the temptation is so great, that I leave my bank card at home. But I had a free lunch voucher from volunteering at a food bank last year, so I used it today.
For two, I have become so bummed out about my weight--I cant remember ever feeling more uncomfortable in my skin in about 10 years. My body has also changed so much from having my son--clothes dont fit like they used to and I cant cover up my stomach as well as I used to. I just turned 40 and I am finding it incredibly difficult to lose the weight. Its like I am unable to see the small goals-instead I focus on the whole thing and think about how much weight I need to lose.
Work is stressful. I mentioned on another thread that I am planning my escape from this place after 7 years. Its great that I have a very promising lead on something and expect to be handing in my notice in another week or so. But until it's confirmed, I cant celebrate. Instead I am here, trying to co-exist with a boss who (to her boss) recently flat out denied something that she said to me. She is a hard person to describe (I would need all day) but suffice it to say that she is the worst boss I have ever had.
My baby is starting to grow up and I am getting sad about it. He's 14 months, but already he doesnt need me to hold him as much at night. He's walking now. We're almost done breastfeeding. All of these things are great, but they are incredibly sad as well. Age and finances pretty much dictate that he will be our only one.
I need to go to the doctor about a couple things and I need to get back into therapy. But I dont want to be taking excessive time off work because my boss looks for anything to pick at you about and I just dont want to deal with the hassle.
There are always those financial worries that I am sure most of us suffer from...paying off a roof repair, desperately needing a new bed, credit cards that need to be paid down, medical bills for my son that still need to be paid, wondering when our 13 year old cars are going to break down for good, needing a more functional kitchen...
So this feels good to get everything out. Maybe it can help me get back on track. In fact, I think I am going to create a thread for us to post about all the blessings we have in our life.
And today I resolve to call my chiro, my regular doctor and make contact with a therapist I have been considering. If you've read down this far, I would love it if someone could volunteer for me to be accountable to on these things.
~Becky
I ask myself why?
For one, I let myself get way too hungry. I was pretty pleased that I had my planned breakfast and snack and was full. But then I was working full speed ahead and before I knew it, I was ravenous. We have an awesome cafeteria where I work and the temptation is so great, that I leave my bank card at home. But I had a free lunch voucher from volunteering at a food bank last year, so I used it today.
For two, I have become so bummed out about my weight--I cant remember ever feeling more uncomfortable in my skin in about 10 years. My body has also changed so much from having my son--clothes dont fit like they used to and I cant cover up my stomach as well as I used to. I just turned 40 and I am finding it incredibly difficult to lose the weight. Its like I am unable to see the small goals-instead I focus on the whole thing and think about how much weight I need to lose.
Work is stressful. I mentioned on another thread that I am planning my escape from this place after 7 years. Its great that I have a very promising lead on something and expect to be handing in my notice in another week or so. But until it's confirmed, I cant celebrate. Instead I am here, trying to co-exist with a boss who (to her boss) recently flat out denied something that she said to me. She is a hard person to describe (I would need all day) but suffice it to say that she is the worst boss I have ever had.
My baby is starting to grow up and I am getting sad about it. He's 14 months, but already he doesnt need me to hold him as much at night. He's walking now. We're almost done breastfeeding. All of these things are great, but they are incredibly sad as well. Age and finances pretty much dictate that he will be our only one.
I need to go to the doctor about a couple things and I need to get back into therapy. But I dont want to be taking excessive time off work because my boss looks for anything to pick at you about and I just dont want to deal with the hassle.
There are always those financial worries that I am sure most of us suffer from...paying off a roof repair, desperately needing a new bed, credit cards that need to be paid down, medical bills for my son that still need to be paid, wondering when our 13 year old cars are going to break down for good, needing a more functional kitchen...
So this feels good to get everything out. Maybe it can help me get back on track. In fact, I think I am going to create a thread for us to post about all the blessings we have in our life.
And today I resolve to call my chiro, my regular doctor and make contact with a therapist I have been considering. If you've read down this far, I would love it if someone could volunteer for me to be accountable to on these things.
~Becky
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160 calories? Pshaw...that's peanuts. Well technically, not even. A 20 minute walk tonight will take care of that. Sounds yummy. I'm glad you got all that out. Sounds like you made some steps towards working through it. Boo towards *mean* bosses. Everything is going to work out. New beginnings are great!0
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I should clarify I'm not swearing. Don't report me. I've been reported on my neighborhood forum once today for saying "idiots"..I'm fragile. I can't handle a strike two. I'll edit when I get back to a computer.0
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Oh crap....no swearing? So that's why sh*tty keeps getting deleted? So sorry for my trash mouth!
Chips, complain away! I also just read your blessings list. What we are doing here is tough, and when you stop eating your bad feelings, you have to feel them. Don't apologize. Just hug yourself, make your list, keep stepping. One slip up doesn't ruin everything.
Now go call your chiro, doctor, and therapist! And take a walk.0 -
Shall I read to you from my food diary about my worst days. If I only do 160cal of damage thats not bad. I know it sucks at any amount because you feel like you let yourself down. You just have to except it, shrug it off and start making good decisions again. You know 160cal isn't going to sink you and that if you wanted you could work those off. So learn from it and put the cookies down
You know what you did and why you did it, thats whats important because it will help you make better decisions in the future, especially when you know your triggers. I often delay on meals and it can have similar consciences.0 -
Thanks everyone! I have an appt with my chiro Friday and with my regular doctor next Tuesday. I was looking at the therapists rates and I can't afford $110 for a session right now. I have a carpy (see what I did there?) insurance plan where you pay 100% of expenses until you meet your ridiculously high deductible. The potential new company I am going to has 100% employer paid insurance with normal co-pays, so I may need to wait on that one.
Blonda, reported for saying "idiot"? My boss must be in charge of monitoring people's posts--ha!
Feeling better and you all helped so much. Thank you!0 -
I had THE worst boss EVER for 8 years so I know how you feel. Planning her retirement party was like planning my own celebration party.
I agree with the others 160.. that's an oh well.. I enjoyed it.. back to it.. and walk.
I get the financial stuff too. We got into an overcommitted mess we will be in until September and I am sick and tired of having no money. Tiles are falling off the bathroom wall, we are penny pinching, we can't find out why our van is doing 9 mph and we hope it doesn't break down because we are screwed.
I will miss my sons second wedding because I can't afford to fly.. but he said to come later when my new grandbaby from my daughter is born because I haven't met her 2 year old yet. So I was planning to go in October (found cheap Priceline tickets) but my passport is expired and will cost over $400 to renew according to the website. I haven't seen my daughter for 3 years now.
I am sure that others here in this group will have similar struggles to relate. And it's hard when you want to treat it all with cookies!!
Don't ever be afraid to come here and vent.0 -
I miss my UK family too Julie, and we too cannot afford to visit. My mum had a brain bleed, went into a coma and died 4 days later 2 years ago, she was 56. I had to have my husband call my inlaws and ask if we could borrow the ticket money home, they got all anal about using their credit card online...anyway long story and I will cry if I type it all out, but I completely understand the pain and frustration of not being able to go home now and then.0
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Venting is the best therapy sometimes, we are all here to support you as well. Work stress is an awful way to feel like you are sabotaging yourself but 160 is "barely" over in my eyes. That can easily be fixed, even if not today!
My twins are 14 months as well so I understand the new found independence and not wanting or needing mommy all the time.0 -
I fell today too BBC. I caved to Gummi Bears. WTF was I thinking........the calories I can absorb and account for and counterbalance....but umm....aaaaaa...errrrr....ahmmm....the sugar was the killer. I didnt even eat that many but the point was, Im a freakin diabetic for gawd sake.........WTF possessed me?
Im well within my calories because I keep myself on the shy side all day. I do this so that I can have a nice supper with the Love of my Life. He is an awesome cook...he can cook anything. It's so cute...he weighs and measures everything for me, fixes my plate AND serves me
How freakin' awesome is that?? What can I say...I love the big doof and he's my big doof (he's lost well over 100 pounds in the last 18 months just by cutting back on foods. He is a retired truck driver and is on disability for MS)
Anyway..onward and downward (the scale that is)
WE
CAN
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THIS damnitalltoheII !!!0 -
160 calories is nothing, and I agree with taking a walk. You probably already burned it off but just don't realize it!! Chase your son around a few times!! :happy: I don't even want to think about how many time I've gone over. It happens and right now I feel like having a fresh loaf of bread with Twinkies!! Figure THAT one out!!
I understand about bad bosses. I've had a couple who were micro-managers and made things so bad for us, to the point of stress and tears and quitting. I hope that this new opportunity works out for you. Think happy thoughts!! :happy:
Cherish the time you have with your baby. Before you know it, he'll be 30 (like mine), and my second who is 27. They grow up too fast and what I wouldn't trade for them to be little again. Where DOES the time go??!!
With life comes debt - unless you're one of the lucky ones who just won the lottery and I pray every day that this happens to me. Although money is tight and the bills won't go away, I am grateful for what I have. My car is 10 years old and as soon as I made the last payment, it was one thing going wrong after another thing breaking down and every morning I pray that it starts.
There's nothing wrong with venting and I believe it's necessary (for sake of sanity), but after that, think of all the good, positive, wonderful things and people in your life. No matter what is going on in my life (good and bad), I still thank the Lord for everything and anything, no matter how small.0 -
Claudie, so nice to see you here and with such encouraging words. You are simply marvelous.0
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Thank you thank you thank you, everyone! I am really touched by the words of support.0
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Claudie, so nice to see you here and with such encouraging words. You are simply marvelous.
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As others have said 160 over is nothing. A walk or a few minutes of exercise will burn that off. Also remember you are over your goal that includes your deficit, you are probably still well below maintenance, so you are still losing weight.
One thing that is important is to not let stress, worry or other emotions trigger eating. We should be eating because we are hungry and need fuel for our bodies, not because we are trying to improve our mood. It is much easier said than done, but try to be mindful about when and why you are eating.
Remember tomorrow is a new day. You can't change what you ate today, but you can choose to make better food choices tomorrow.0 -
I went over yesterday, too, so you're not alone!
I had the whole day planned out. I generally track breakfast, lunch, and dinner, then my exercise, and then I just try to keep in mind how many extra calories I have for snacks and stick to that. But yesterday my boyfriend had an eye appointment, and I was going to go with him so we could go to the bookstore nearby and then do some other shopping over that way. I had a slightly bigger lunch than I would normally have had because I knew we'd be gone for hours without food, but I had plenty of calories, so it was fine.
But then we were at the mall, and he wanted to get food at the food court. I checked the calories for the day, and I had enough to get a wrap. I was going to end the day with like 92 calories left or something, but that was okay with me because I had already tracked dinner, and I knew I wouldn't want to eat anything else between the wrap and dinner, so I would still have been fine.
Then we went to his parents' house to see if my bathing suit was there (it was), and then his mom invited us to go out to dinner. I didn't want to offend her by saying no, so I let my boyfriend answer, hoping he would remember that we already had plans and a huge discussion about whether or not I could eat the wrap and how many calories were left and all that. But he didn't. So he said yes, and we went. It still wasn't as bad as it could have been, but I still felt full and crappy afterwards. Had I just not had any fries, I would have been fine. I did end up giving most of them to my boyfriend, but I couldn't turn down all of them.
So, yeah, you're not alone in making not the best choices yesterday! I actually feel better after reading everyone else's comments about how 160 isn't that bad. And that's true. All we can do is shake it off and make better choices today. 0
