Help, I'm bingeing and I can't stop!
weightywarrior
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Hey guys, I am feeling so despondent right now. I was sick last week, and ended up with pretty severe dehydration, and ended up having to consume a fairly large quantity of those drinks that replenish salts etc (not sports drinks, ones from the pharmacy). Along with salts, they were loaded with glucose. Nearly 2 litres of the stuff over about 24 hrs fixed my dehydration problem (my head was so sore, I honestly thought I was going to die), but the sugar content woke my cravings beast, which I had been keeping under control for the last 5 months and 29.6kg (65 lbs).
And now all I want to do is eat. And not the good stuff. I feel like a food junkie chasing my next "fix".
When I first changed my lifestyle 5 months ago, I cleared everything that I considered taboo out of my house. my teenage son was unimpressed but was willing to humour me (probably because 50% of his time he is at his dad, with no restraints, food-wise). It was probably 6 weeks before I had reached the stage where a "goodie-box" (snack-type items he can add to his school lunches) no longer bothered me. In fact I hadn't even been interested enough to take a peek and see what was in it.
But now? Not only did I peek in the box, but I emptied it. Completely! And I find myself searching around the house on the off-chance that maybe he has stashed something yummy somewhere else. (This has all been in the last week while he is at his dad, so he is not aware of what I have done).
I don't know how to get my eating under control again! I'm also too embarrassed to tell my son what I have done, but if I go out and replace everything, I'm scared I'll just eat it all again!
I don't want to put all this weight back on! I still have another 62kg (137 lbs) to lose, so I'm not even a third of the way there yet!!
Any advice for me?
And now all I want to do is eat. And not the good stuff. I feel like a food junkie chasing my next "fix".
When I first changed my lifestyle 5 months ago, I cleared everything that I considered taboo out of my house. my teenage son was unimpressed but was willing to humour me (probably because 50% of his time he is at his dad, with no restraints, food-wise). It was probably 6 weeks before I had reached the stage where a "goodie-box" (snack-type items he can add to his school lunches) no longer bothered me. In fact I hadn't even been interested enough to take a peek and see what was in it.
But now? Not only did I peek in the box, but I emptied it. Completely! And I find myself searching around the house on the off-chance that maybe he has stashed something yummy somewhere else. (This has all been in the last week while he is at his dad, so he is not aware of what I have done).
I don't know how to get my eating under control again! I'm also too embarrassed to tell my son what I have done, but if I go out and replace everything, I'm scared I'll just eat it all again!
I don't want to put all this weight back on! I still have another 62kg (137 lbs) to lose, so I'm not even a third of the way there yet!!
Any advice for me?
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My advice?
DO NOT REPLACE THOSE ITEMS. I'm not sure how old your son is but it sounds like he may be old enough to have some empathy for his mother.
I have definitely been where you are (and not very long ago...we're talking a few days ago) and I HAD to clear out everything horrible in my cabinets and go grocery shopping for all clean food. It's actually good that he's not there right now b/c that gives you a chance to get clean without distraction. What usually helps me is to make a bunch of YUMMY food that is healthy and put it all in tupperware so that I have grab and go meals...and also DO NOT go out to eat. Just stick to eating your clean foods.
Also, you want to stick to foods that are low in the glycemic index scale right now...they balance your blood sugar and keep you from craving sugary foods.
stick to the green light foods here: http://www.the-gi-diet.org/glycemicindexchart/
Also, keep coming back here and checking in!! we are here to support you!!
Good luck!! And be strong!!0 -
At this point, I have explained to my daughter that I will not buy her any "junk" food, any longer. If she wants foods that are not nutritious, she will have to purchase them herself and keep them in her room. I am a food addict.....as a matter of fact, I think that it is safe to say that everyone in this group is a food addict. You are not likely to get above 300 pounds without being a food addict. IMHO being a food addict is the hardest kind of addiction. A drug addict or alcoholic can avoid their vices. We can not stop eating, altother. We can only do so much to avoid temptations. Food is everywhere. This addiction is deep seeded and goes all the way back to our childhoods. Food is fuel and nurishment, but we have misappropriated it's purpose.
I want to cry for you because I know your pain. It is difficult and there is not the same kind of support for food addicts, as drug and alcohol addicts. Where I live, there is one program that is about 40 miles from my work, at a time I can't make. I live in a major metropolitan area and there is only ONE meeting at ONE place in the entire area and at a time that normal working adults can not make it to.
The ironic thing is that there are more people with food addictions than any other substance!!! I think where society fails is the perspective on food addiction. People approach food addiction as something that we should be able to control. We are just week, lazy and greedy. There are many reasons why people become obese but once they do there are chemical dependencies.
I just want to let you know that there are hundreds of people on here, that understand what you are going through. You are not alone and truly understand. :flowerforyou:0 -
This is some good advice! Another thing is try to schedule some activities that do not revolve around food. I don't know about you, but when I'm home alone.....that's the worst. I don't know if it is because no one will see or because I'm lonely (don't feel lonely but it could be subconscious), or boredom. I have no idea but I do know that is when I binge. If you plan on going to the park, beach, bowling.....whatever, not only will you get a little exercise, you will probably have fun and those are activities that are not revolved around food.0
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The name of the first thread is accountability. That's what you need. You are not like a food junkie you are one. So am I. I am not judging. You can not take a 1 day failure and turn it into a week of binging feeling guilt or sorry for yourself. I mess up all the time but yesterday's failure should not guarantee today's. Now let's just do better.0
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I've found that when I eat sugar it's really hard to stop. I always think I can have one little treat and handle it, but I just want more. When I'm in the middle of June cravings I find that it helps to drink a lot of water and go find something to do, keeping my mind and hands busy. This trick works especially well when I can admit to myself that I'm not actually hungry, I just want sugar.0
