Going to get under control
ZB1110
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Ok this month I'm getting it together. I've gained 10lbs over the last few months and I'm a personal trainer. You can't be a fat personal train. Not good for business. So each day I'm coming to report the good progress for the month to see if I can get it back together. I'm also going to try the some medication to battle the depression/anxiety that I deal with. But I've got to figure out something to do when I'm bored and the kids are stressing me etc. but this is the month.
Today was a good day. Even hanging with my mom didn't trigger a binge. It usually does.
God give me strength to conquer.
Today was a good day. Even hanging with my mom didn't trigger a binge. It usually does.
God give me strength to conquer.
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You look amazing in your photo! I hope you find the medication helps. It certainly helps me as I tend to get stressed and anxious and that was always a trigger for me.
Good luck and stay strong - you got this!0 -
Well thank you but that photo was from last summer. A year of dieting took it's toll I think and lead to crazy lol.
Yesterday went well. Stayed within calorie range even drinking a glass of wine which made things feel less restrictive eating wise.
Today I'm more hungry though. I know my body is losing fat and trying not to. I have had lunch and really want to go over board right now. But I'm going to drink some water and go outside and mow or something. If I can make it until around 3 I can get past this feeling. Just got to get out of the kitchen...0 -
You can do this. You just have to get your streak going and remind yourself of the ultimate goal. Treat yourself well with some water, exercise that'll get your endorphins running, and some fresh air or a cuddle from a pet. Healthy distractions are wonderful.0
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Ok yesterday I managed to keep it under control. I have been wearing a rubber band and snap it to keep me present and mindful. I know that sounds a little sadistic but it's help to snap me back into the present and focus on my goals.
Today's been a good day. Tomorrow and the weekend is the hardest. I can keep on track I'm not going to let my hubby stress me out. I have wine if I really need it lol.0 -
I've managed to keep it together today. Upped my calories today and actually had pasta so I feel full and normal. Dh and I have anniversary this weekend and my dad is watching my kids tomorrow night. I'll have to deal with dh on my own which sometimes is stressful for me. Just have to not nag...
I have been reading this book called it's not about the broccoli three habits to teach your kids for a lifetime of healthy eating. It's very helpful asd I don't want to pass on my crazy habits and hang ups about food to my kids, but it also has me see where my craziness comes from. I hope this has a long time effect on helping me get a grip. Sometimes I read books and it helps for a little while... But then I forget what I've learned.0 -
Hey there,
Just wanted to throw some support your way
The rubber band is an interesting idea; I may have to try that. Does your husband know about your bingeing? 0 -
Hey pudding- thanks and no dh doesn't know. I haven't spoken to anyone about it except on here.
Well sat, sunday and yesterday where terrible. Actually yesterday was a binge day and sat sun where just bad eating days. Dh and my anniversary was sat so we celebrated with dinner out and way to much wine. That would have been ok but I continued to eat poorly and yesterday was a very busy stressful day so binged because I didn't have time to plan or fix anything good. Ugh.0 -
I am exactly the same: dh doesn't know because I am too ashamed to tell him, even though I know he would be a great support. I am having such a hard time lately too
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Yeah I wouldn't even know how to explain it to dh. Stress causing eating. Though I've seen him soothe with food too it's different from a binge like I have.
Here's what I think is triggering my binge behavior this past year... My dear sweet children lol. I love them but I think some days they really stress me out. Plus I worry constantly if I'm doing the right things to raise them so they are smart and healthy. Like to much screen time, enough reading, eating well, etc.
I've got to relax. Chill. I think I need more meditation and medication lol.
At least today I feel in control. I do feel really fat though and I hate that feeling. It really makes me obsess and makes me hate myself even more. All my cloths fit tight and I'm just miserable.0 -
Ok today was a challenge and I did manage not to binge! I was right on the edge I wanted to so bad. I had some stressful situations last night that I was ruminating over and feeling bad in general this morning with a headache and tired from not sleeping well. But I got through it.0
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Good for you!
My boys can totally stress me out too. Especially if it's an evening when dh isn't home so I'm doing the whole dinner and bedtime routine plus the day stuff (I'm a stay at home mom), if they are acting up, my first thought once they're in bed is to stuff my face :P0 -
Last weekend started out good and went down hill. Sunday was a binge day because I had a very stressful day. Water heater down, dh having to work all day at home not celebrating Father's Day and then a dinner at my moms that did not go well. Then took my dad to lunch the next day and ate too much pizza and it went from there. I can not eat carbs and stop. It's such a trigger. I just can't eat out or with people with out bingeing. It's just too stressful. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow and hope to get some meds. Anti anxiety or something. I actually did stop myself last night. We went to a birthday party and there was BBQ. I had my plate and almost ate dd plate too, but stopped myself and just threw it away. I still felt hungry for a while but finally convinced myself that I had enough food I finally I felt full. So at least on victory I guess. Lord what a freakin mess I am and have gotten myself into.0
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It's one step at a time. They say to take it one day at a time, but I think it's an even smaller measurement than that. I split my day into thirds and just focus on making it through one part of the day with a strong mindset. Have you considered meditation? If you don't already do it, I know it can seem like a silly idea, but it's great for stress relief and refocusing your mind on what's important.0
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Crepes- yes I love meditation. I wish I had more time to do it but I fit what I can in where I can.
I started some depression medication. It's only been 2days but I feel a little less crazy so that's good. It's Saturday and dh really stresses me out most weekends. So if I can make it through today... I'm trying just to stay away from him and be busy doing projects. That sounds bad... I love my dh and he's a great guy, but being home together is sometimes stressful lol.0 -
I am so with you on it sometimes being stressful having the husband around. I love my dh and he's very helpful around the house and with the boys, but I have such a good flow going on my own (I'm a stay at home mom and thrive with routine) and sometimes having him around just throws that off. He doesn't understand how changes in plans or routines can make me anxious or stressed but they just do, and that's when I immediately think about food
This weekend has been BAD good wise. And I only did three workout this past week (my three lift days) with no extra cardio; I haven't done so few workouts in a LONG time! I really need to get back on track tomorrow.0 -
The meds seem to be helping. There has been a few side effects the worst s just feeling a little high. I hope it goes away. I do feel emotionally better and in control of myself. I don't feel like I want to rip everyone's heads off and actually like people again lol.
Dh and I did get into it a little on Saturday night. All about dinner. I get so tired of planning the menu and cooking. But dh won't cook so if I day I won't or don't cook it's out to eat. Going out to eat makes me feel like crap, plus it usually sets off a binge. I really just wanted them to eat something quick -I had oatmeal- but no it has to be a production so he went out and got him and the kids some nice greesy gross food. Oh well at least I didn't have to cook, but then I began to feel guilty about not feeding my children good food, just because I was tired. Hind sight I see I need to give myself a break. A few bad meals are not going to kill my children. They are healthy and eat pretty well most of the time.
But slowly getting it together...0 -
Well for the past 2weeks I've not binged. I wanted to get to July in control. I do feel in control of it right now. The meds have been a godsend. I don't know exactly how they are changing me but I just feel more in control of my emotions and definately my eating. so July is going to be even better.0
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That's great news! May I ask what meds they are?0
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It's a anti depressive med. I've really only binged once in the past 3 weeks. And it really wasn't that bad. Mostly I was hungry and didn't have time to fix something good. What I'm very happy with is just thinking less about food. It's not the obsessive thinking about what I should eat or not eat. I'm eating when hungry and know that it's hunger. So progress. Yay!0
