Surgery Regrets

I had my surgery on June 18. For the first week afterwards I cried and was depressed, I was regretting the surgery. Now of course I have accepted the fact that it's done and over with and I will make sure that it was not all done for nothing. I am down 26lbs and am excited to continue the journey. I was just wondering if anyone else had regrets afterwards, is this normal?
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  • asia1967
    asia1967 Posts: 707 Member
    Holly: Sorry to hear that you are having the feeling of regret. My friend had her surgery and it took her about 6 months before she appreciated the surgery. It is life altering, and no amount of preparation can completely prepare us for all the changes. Take your time, this is all new and will take time to adjust.

    The only regret I had was not being in the proper state of mind to have the surgery sooner. It has literally been a life saver for me.

    Good luck, and be kind to yourself.
  • Hollybellalike
    Hollybellalike Posts: 6 Member
    Thank you so much for the kind words, much appreciated!
  • Hi holly, sorry to hear your having difficulties. I had my op on Monday 30 June and thought I'd be miserable as hell. I've surprised myself and am being really positive. Maybe I've got the down period to come! Think of your health and how many yrs this will add to your life. You will be able to eat nice things again but just a bit less. In a few months time you'll be pleased and know u made the right decision. Chin up Hun xx
  • authorwriter
    authorwriter Posts: 323 Member
    Oh wow! I soooo regretted having this surgery on Day 3. I was heaving and dehydrated and if I'd had the energy to find the medical waste bucket they'd dumped the removed half of my stomach into, I'd have hauled it out, handed it to my surgeon and told her "Put it back."

    Then I stopped puking.

    Sounds like you've had phenomenal weight loss so far. You will feel better and better every day. I'm a little over 7 wks out and I still struggle several times daily with 'was this REALLY a good idea?' but then I get out of my chair twice as fast as I did before the surgery and tell myself, 'Yes, it was.'

    Hang in there. You're recovering. It gets better.
  • relentless2121
    relentless2121 Posts: 431 Member
    Hi Holly... great minds think alike. lol. What I mean by that is I also started a thread on this topic about a month ago. I'm not sure if you can still bring it up or not but if you go back and search the topic you might still be able to read it. I posed the question about whether people had regretted having the surgery. There was also a lot of discussion on depression.

    I haven't had my surgery yet so I can't offer any feedback based on my own experience, but I would think that at time some of us go through a grieving process with our former relationship with food. I have been warned by my GP and other Dr. that some people who already suffer from depression are more depressed after surgery. At this point I find that hard to believe but again I don't have my own experience to base that on. I hope this is helpful to you. I see that you are new. Welcome to the forum. :flowerforyou:
  • Mangopickle
    Mangopickle Posts: 1,509 Member
    Treat this as an amazing Grace given to you by God. Your relationship with food has been completely revealed. You now understand how you have used food a an emotional crutch to get thru your day. We all understand. obesity is 90% Why we eat not what we eat. I laughingly say now i never had time to be depressed when i was obese because i preloaded with fabulous, rich food every morning and thruout the day. i would be ridiculously upset if a meal was not any good and within 40 min of eating it anyway i would be looking for another meal to deliver the high. I broke up with food 2 yrs ago. I was literally eating myself to death and even though i was active, more 5K walks than i can count, 5 1/2 marathon walks. My perfect blood pressure went away, my blood sugar began to rise and i developed sleep apnea.. I began to work closely with my Priest on my gluttony problem. I began to be more accepting of the hardships of life as part of the greater matrix of Glory. Loved ones were going to die, people were gonna get cancer, lose jobs, go broke , etc. Facing Life with Fortitude and Temperance would reveal the opportunities for Grace. And at best i finally admitted to myself the food never gave me more than 5 min of enjoyment-thats why i always wanted one more treat. Now when death and destruction come in to my life, i grieve, i cry, i pray, i deal.....i do not eat to run away from the pain. i also avoid celebrating too much with food. You really will probably be able to eat everything again in 5 months......the question will be, will you choose you or will you choose food. We have free will, it will be your choice. Saying a prayer for you. St Maximillian Kolbe and Mary were and are great mentors in my food addiction process of recovery. i highly recommend them. God Bless :)
  • dsjsmom23
    dsjsmom23 Posts: 234 Member
    I had my surgery on June 18. For the first week afterwards I cried and was depressed, I was regretting the surgery. Now of course I have accepted the fact that it's done and over with and I will make sure that it was not all done for nothing. I am down 26lbs and am excited to continue the journey. I was just wondering if anyone else had regrets afterwards, is this normal?

    You just described me, minus the crying. I was in a major funk. My hormones were all over the place though. I had MAJOR regrets for the first few days. I had my surgery on Tuesday June 24. I woke up on the Saturday after my surgery, and just decided "enough is enough"
    I realized THIS is my new normal. There was nothing I could do to change it back, so I sucked it up, and decided to do what I needed to do. LOL

    That Saturday was the first morning that I had slept well, and i'm sure that had a lot to do with my mood. LOL

    I'm still kinda meh, but that's because i'm still on full fluids. I just want to put something in my mouth and chomp. LOL I'm sick to death of all my liquids.

    Thursday I move on to the next stage which is purees for me.
    So far i'm tolerating everything, so hopefully i'll be good moving on to the next phase.

    I'd love scrambled eggs right now! That's the thing i'm craving most! LOL
  • garber6th
    garber6th Posts: 1,890 Member
    Post-surgery is a pretty emotional time. Not only did you just go through major surgery, but you also have to learn a whole new way of being and that can be scary and overwhelming. It's natural to have thoughts of "what did I just do?" because you are entering uncharted territory. The positive side of it is that you have a clean slate. It's a real gift to be able to start over and live this new normal. Once you are more adjusted, you start feeling better, and you start getting the hang of things, I am sure you will start to feel better!!
  • FFfitgirl
    FFfitgirl Posts: 369 Member
    I regret mine. It's been over a year, and I have no restriction.
  • authorwriter
    authorwriter Posts: 323 Member
    I regret mine. It's been over a year, and I have no restriction.

    Have you had the sleeve tested? What does the surgeon say? This is horrifying to hear.
  • Mangopickle
    Mangopickle Posts: 1,509 Member
    I had my surgery on June 18. For the first week afterwards I cried and was depressed, I was regretting the surgery. Now of course I have accepted the fact that it's done and over with and I will make sure that it was not all done for nothing. I am down 26lbs and am excited to continue the journey. I was just wondering if anyone else had regrets afterwards, is this normal?

    You just described me, minus the crying. I was in a major funk. My hormones were all over the place though. I had MAJOR regrets for the first few days. I had my surgery on Tuesday June 24. I woke up on the Saturday after my surgery, and just decided "enough is enough"
    I realized THIS is my new normal. There was nothing I could do to change it back, so I sucked it up, and decided to do what I needed to do. LOL

    That Saturday was the first morning that I had slept well, and i'm sure that had a lot to do with my mood. LOL

    I'm still kinda meh, but that's because i'm still on full fluids. I just want to put something in my mouth and chomp. LOL I'm sick to death of all my liquids.

    Thursday I move on to the next stage which is purees for me.
    So far i'm tolerating everything, so hopefully i'll be good moving on to the next phase.

    I'd love scrambled eggs right now! That's the thing i'm craving most! LOL

    Have you tried Gordon Ramseys method of scrambling eggs?- SSOOOO yummy!
  • dsjsmom23
    dsjsmom23 Posts: 234 Member
    I had my surgery on June 18. For the first week afterwards I cried and was depressed, I was regretting the surgery. Now of course I have accepted the fact that it's done and over with and I will make sure that it was not all done for nothing. I am down 26lbs and am excited to continue the journey. I was just wondering if anyone else had regrets afterwards, is this normal?

    You just described me, minus the crying. I was in a major funk. My hormones were all over the place though. I had MAJOR regrets for the first few days. I had my surgery on Tuesday June 24. I woke up on the Saturday after my surgery, and just decided "enough is enough"
    I realized THIS is my new normal. There was nothing I could do to change it back, so I sucked it up, and decided to do what I needed to do. LOL

    That Saturday was the first morning that I had slept well, and i'm sure that had a lot to do with my mood. LOL

    I'm still kinda meh, but that's because i'm still on full fluids. I just want to put something in my mouth and chomp. LOL I'm sick to death of all my liquids.

    Thursday I move on to the next stage which is purees for me.
    So far i'm tolerating everything, so hopefully i'll be good moving on to the next phase.

    I'd love scrambled eggs right now! That's the thing i'm craving most! LOL

    Have you tried Gordon Ramseys method of scrambling eggs?- SSOOOO yummy!

    No, I can't have scrambled eggs yet :(
    I have to wait until 4 weeks according to my program. Boo!
  • Ksh1055
    Ksh1055 Posts: 248 Member
    Fortunately, I have had no problems post-surgery, other than what used to be normal body functions, that are now completely different. Depression was a major concern of mine since I have been under treatment for this for the past few years and take medication to help keep it under control. I also had no issues of any kind post surgery otherwise I may very well have suffered more depression than usual.

    I waited until I was absolutely certain I had the mindset (commitment, dedication, motivation and accountability) to do whatever it takes to be successful. In fact, at 5 months out, I feel energized and more like the person I used to be and that motivates me even more. MFP friends have played a huge part in my continued focus on being a success by their input and advice. My family is very supportive and noticing positive changes in both my physical person and my mental/emotional health. That's not saying there won't be some bumps along my new journey, but really believe I will be able to continue with my current attitude.

    I wish you the best and hope the depression and regrets subside as you begin to lost weight and see your quality of life improve.
  • bikrchk
    bikrchk Posts: 516 Member
    ZERO regrets unless you count, "why didn't I do this sooner"!
  • Thaeda
    Thaeda Posts: 834 Member
    Regrets? Oh heck yeah!! I was FULL of remorse and had crazy mood swings and was wondering why the heck I did this for about the first 4-6 weeks! Seriously-- I felt anxious, sad, overwhelmed-- name it. It will pass. Keep doing the next right thing. Keep taking care of yourself. It gets better.
  • BringingSherriBack
    BringingSherriBack Posts: 607 Member
    ZERO regrets unless you count, "why didn't I do this sooner"!

    ^^^^^THIS!!!!
  • JreedyJanelle
    JreedyJanelle Posts: 645 Member
    Right after surgery when I still had pain, I thought 'what the hell did I just do'. But now as I see the scale move downwards I am thrilled. Each day I get on that scale I am thankful for the surgery. There are days when it stays the same, but I have never had a gain. I have done every diet that is out there and yes I would lose wt, and then nothing. Frustration would set in and depression would follow. Then I would eat again. Well now I can't eat much and honestly I have never felt better. I so wish I had done this sooner.
  • pawoodhull
    pawoodhull Posts: 1,759 Member
    Hi Holly. My only regret was not having it sooner than age 55. What I remember feeling was overwhelmed at trying to keep all the information straight, get in the protein, how to keep track (I didn't know about this site at that point), how I could possibly get all the water in, etc. I cried a lot in frustration because I felt so overwhelmed, but I never regretted my decision. Even now, 3 years out and still working towards goal (I lose slow and stall often), I am so happy I did this. I never would be 160 pounds down and mobile again if I hadn't have had it done.

    Pat
  • lucyw70
    lucyw70 Posts: 37 Member
    Hang in there Holly. Like others my only regret is not having it sooner. I am still getting use to what I can eat and the amount. It seems to get easier each day. I usually stop eating pretty quickly just to make sure that I don't overeat (I really hate to feel full). This forum has been a great support and have learned a lot through reading other people's experiences.
  • plmelquist
    plmelquist Posts: 42
    Hi there,

    I had my surgery on 4/28 and my first full day home I struggled with "what have I done?" Not that I felt bad, just shocked that I had made such a radical move. I was back to normal by that night and haven't looked back since. I can tell you that as of today I'm 9 weeks out, I can eat anything and drink anything. Normal will return, I promise.:laugh:
  • DJRonnieLINY
    DJRonnieLINY Posts: 475 Member
    No regrets but I did go through the emotional process of making such a drastic change. Still have not completely wrapped my minds eye around how different I feel and look. There is a lot of information to process and early on you are recovering from surgery. Hang in there, follow the program and in about 4 months your only regret may be waiting so long to do it.
  • homerismyhero
    homerismyhero Posts: 204 Member
    No regrets, but the first 21 days are tough. I remember not feeling well, and being food obsessed. it gets better. My hormones were all over the place, my body was adjusting- and my brain was getting over having it's EAT NOW command ignored. It really will get better.
  • capecodgirl50
    capecodgirl50 Posts: 111 Member
    I had a lot of regrets! I also had issues with a stricture that set me back many weeks. Ended up in the hospital for 18 days. right not I still have issues with eating slower and getting in the food, but I am looking forward - not backward.

    I hope I have done the right thing. but this is a totally new way of living. I guess I didn't expect it to be this rigid.
  • dezbie
    dezbie Posts: 19 Member
    Experiencing lots of regret, I'm completely food obsessed and miss eating, I'm having a hard time swallowing liquids no matter how slow I sip it's causing me pain, surgery was 2 weeks ago and I'm just wishing I could go back in time :/ Trying to reassure myself this was for my own good and things will get better
  • relentless2121
    relentless2121 Posts: 431 Member
    I wish I could encourage you based on my own experience of having my surgery but I haven't had it yet. :smile: :heart:
    Based on other people's posts that I have read it sounds like there can be a time of exhaustion, healing and for some depression following the surgery.
    Please don't give up Dezbie. In a few days, when you are thru the worst of the healing you will probably feel a lot better.
    And when you see that scale move south you will feel even better.
    Hang in there my friend. Things are gonna get better soon. :flowerforyou: :flowerforyou:
  • Missjulesdid
    Missjulesdid Posts: 1,444 Member
    For the first few weeks I had a weird feeling because I had done something that couldn't be un-done. I knew in my head that I had made the right choice, and physically I had a very easy recovery but still there was a finality to knowing that 75% of my perfectly healthy stomach was rotting away in a Mexican bio-dump.
  • DeweyRN
    DeweyRN Posts: 18 Member
    I haven't had any regret but I can honestly say that I have had my share of intense junk food cravings and many mixed emotions. I have gone back and forth with feeling anxious, restlessness, anger (at not being able to eat junk), and fear of failure. All that to say, all of these things that you are feeling are so very normal. As someone else said, you have just made a very sudden and drastic life change. What I am learning to do is to find the very center of all of the bad thoughts/feelings and just sit there in it, trying to allow myself to be uncomfortable without turning to food. I have to learn to allow myself to feel my feelings and realize that they do pass. I just want to encourage you and anyone else struggling. I am 5.5 weeks out from my sleeve as of today and down 33 lbs. I know that this decision was do or die for me, I had no other option. I have to believe this will get easier with time.

    I just wanted to share two great books that I discovered that discuss all of the emotional aspects of bariatric surgery and how to work through them..."The Emotional First + Aid Kit" by Cynthia L. Alexander PsyD and "Through Thick & Thin: The Emotional Journey of Weight Loss Surgery" by Warren L. Huberman Ph.D. So far these books have been so very helpful and I highly recommend them for people in all phases of the process.

    It is one minute at a time, one day at a time. Hang in there!
  • priceless97
    priceless97 Posts: 27 Member
    I've had them and I'm still having them. I was sleeved on May 19th. I'm down 30lbs and while it's fine--I have discovered the love affair I had with food. I felt like I had no friends and I didn't want to do anything because everything revolved around food--let's go for drinks--let's go to happy hour--birthday dinner parties and I just didn't want to go. Well I went to one and I was able to have a chicken wing..and 30 mins later I drank some water--and I didn't throw up--so I kept drinking water and spent more time talking than eating and had a grand time. lol I'm actually taking myself on a trip to Dallas tomorrow because I NEED TO GET AWAY..just me and the road for 3 1/2 hours so I can think and talk to myself. I've got a good weekend planned for myself because I think the regret of the surgery, etc is all in my mind and I've got to change my self talk. Why not start with a nice little trip away?! It will get better as my girlfriends who've been sleeved over a year have told me.

    Now I'm sad cause nothing fits me and I just can't go out and buy a ton of clothing...but I will say.. I don't regret having a good night sleep without my cpap machine--or taking insulin every day. :-) And I'm almost 2 months out.
  • SKRPY
    SKRPY Posts: 12
    So sorry you experienced these difficulties. I have had a good first 3 weeks but am frustrated because I am not off insulin, which I had hoped would happen. I am also at a stall as to weight loss at 14 pounds. I know this happens but it's a little soon I think. Anyway, I know it will all work out in the end and I will get off the insulin and start losing weight again.

    Hang in there - it is all for good. You will see.
  • Mangopickle
    Mangopickle Posts: 1,509 Member
    So sorry you experienced these difficulties. I have had a good first 3 weeks but am frustrated because I am not off insulin, which I had hoped would happen. I am also at a stall as to weight loss at 14 pounds. I know this happens but it's a little soon I think. Anyway, I know it will all work out in the end and I will get off the insulin and start losing weight again.

    Hang in there - it is all for good. You will see.

    That happened to me. I worked with my nut and here is what we discovered. The food I was eating was too salty, I was constipated, I wasn't weighing and measuring my food and I was way off on my calories. Since I had trouble getting food down my meals were turning into 2 hours of grazing - I had to finish my 3/4 cup of food in 30 min or put it away for the next meal. No grabbing bites between meals. I wasn't getting enough protein. Ever since then I have stuck to the 1 cup of 70% protein, 25%veg- no potato5% whole grain carb in a 30 min meal 3x a day with one snack and the scale moves down regularly every 8-10 days