It's Time

meadow_sage
meadow_sage Posts: 308 Member
I have always had issues with food. I'm super morbidly obese with diabetes, high blood pressure, kidney stones and so many related issues. I am madly addicted to certain things. I won't mention what, to keep from triggering any cravings for others....or myself, for that much matter. I have tried and tried and tried and tried, again to overcome my weight issues. I think this is rock bottom. I ended up in the hospital in February because my blood pressure was so high that the doctors were concerned that I might have a stroke. Every bit of my intelligence tells me to eat better and I know how. Knowing how and doing it is two different things. Really, us extremely obese people probably know more than some health care workers do. Although, a lot of info out there is misleading, I think we've all weeded through all of that. Eat clean and lean. Simple, unless you are addicted.

People seem to think that being greedy, undisciplined and lazy are the only factors in someone being overweight. There may be some truth to it, but like all assumptions and stereotypes it is a limited perspective and presumptuous. For some, there is a real physical and psychological addiction to food.

Back to ROCK BOTTOM!!!! This is it. I can't take it anymore. I'm going to die, if I don't get help. It's out of control. So, Monday I'm going to attend my first OA meeting. I don't know what to expect but I'm hopeful.

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  • meadow_sage
    meadow_sage Posts: 308 Member
    One of the things that has delayed my step in this direction is the Twelve Step Program that revolves around a certain view of God. I'm not Christian but I'm very spiritual. The concept that they use in the Step program mentions God and Him....which is not conducive with my personal beliefs. With that being said, I'm very tolerant and open to all religions and I'm hoping that I can adapt the concepts to fit my own personal spiritual beliefs. I guess this will be a multi-faceted venture.
  • Whats an OA Meeting?
    Im struggling with the addiction too food as well. Im not quite to the Diabetes yet but im considered borderline by my doctor. I need to turn this around too.
    Good Luck on your Journey.
  • Dennis4766
    Dennis4766 Posts: 470 Member
    Whats an OA Meeting?

    Overeaters Anonymous.
  • meadow_sage
    meadow_sage Posts: 308 Member
    Sorry for the late response. As Dennis answered, OA stands for Overeaters Anonymous. I actually attended my first meeting tonight. What I found a room full of people that really understand what I go through. Some are in recovery and some are aiming for it. They actually base the program on the same 12 steps as AA, except it's related to food addiction instead of alcohol. I will definitely be going back. I was really nervous before going in, so awkward. I went in and very quickly felt comfortable. I have went to therapy before and I think this group will benefit me more than a lifetime of therapy will.
  • kasterrett
    kasterrett Posts: 53 Member
    I really like the OA meetings, but I've only ever done them online.
  • BoubouChan
    BoubouChan Posts: 163 Member
    What I found a room full of people that really understand what I go through. Some are in recovery and some are aiming for it. They actually base the program on the same 12 steps as AA, except it's related to food addiction instead of alcohol. I will definitely be going back. I was really nervous before going in, so awkward. I went in and very quickly felt comfortable. I have went to therapy before and I think this group will benefit me more than a lifetime of therapy will.

    I'm glad that it went so well, that's great. I've thought about going to OA meetings before, but never actually did it. I guess it makes me too anxious. Although I am not a religious person, I've always like the serenity prayer. For those who don't know it goes :

    God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
    The courage to change the things I can,
    And wisdom to know the difference.

    It really speaks to me, because I feel getting better is all about accepting your past mistakes and not hating yourself. And then you can begin a journey of improvement.