My largest obstacle would have to perfectionism. I want everything in my life to be perfect. Although I know this will never happen...its bothers me to not even try. I definetly gets in the way sometimes and causes me to fall behind in many areas.
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Last year, my mother, father and grandfather were all diagnosed with cancer within thre months of each other. This expericen has truly opened my eyes to whats important. My grandfather moved on, my father is in remission (raditation) and my mother is still fighting(chemo)!!! She's so tough! I want to be her when I grow up!

1. I am eternally grateful for my family- mother, father and my daughter in particular. They have become my world. Its weird because I've always loved them, but now its like I truly value them and better see their purpose in my life. I see where they sacrifice for me and truly provide me with unconditional love.

2. I'm grateful to have turned 30 this past March! Being 30 is amazing. Its like I went to sleep and woke up with an enitrely new outlook on life....clarity and freedom. Things just seem different.I'm able to better express my feelings, I have a better idea of what I want.... Releasing myself from 20's stressors and truly freed me.

3. I am grateful for my friend Andrew. We aren't officially dating but we kinda are. It may be confusing to you but we have perfect understanding. We met a year ago on an online dating site. Although we live in the same city, in all that time we never met. It wasn't a catfish becuase I knew people who knew him, he knew people that knew me, and neither of us was avoiding the meet up. We both just had things going on in our lives. Usually me, I'm a serial date canceler!! We talked probably once or twice a month, if that. We also chatted on instagram pretty regularly. A few months ago, I randomly called him just to say hi. We've decided to finally meet up and have been inseperable ever since. He's quickly become my calm in the storm. I sit thinking OMG I slept on a great guy for a little over a year! But everything happens for a reason. I love that he is always optimistic and family orientated.We relate on so many levels. He also has the three of the four main charateristics that I've been looking for in a mate- Comunication, Consideration, Consistency. Commitment which is the final component, I feel, will come in time. Not taking anything to fast or out of context. I'm just happy right now to have a true friend who will answer the phone when I call.

My largest obstacle is losing focus! I do great when I initially decide to do something, then I think I get bored or refocus on something else. Sometimes I think I want do achieve too many things and I get overwhelmed with it all and just STOP!

I believe that setting goals, especially the weekly goals is very helpful for me!

Things that I am grateful for:
1. I am thankful that I am healthy enough to be able to do things I enjoy, like running, hiking and yoga. I am thankful that my legs can take me where I want to go.
2. I am thankful that I had the opportunity to go to college and finish my degree and that I have a decent job. I am thankful that my mind is full of information that helps me every day and that I still have room to learn more.
3. I am thankful for the challenges that I have had in my life because I feel that they are what has made me who I am today. It's not so great being in the mist of problems but overcoming challenges is a great feeling. I am grateful that I am alive and can live to see tomorrow.
4. I am also thankful for love. I am thankful that I have people in my life that I can love and feel love in return. Life isn't always easy and I know that having others in your life to help you get through the rough spots and give you the happiest moments!

We often take for granted the very things that most deserve our gratitude

1. I am thankful that I got my blood pressure in control
2. I am thankful that I still have my legs to run
3. I am thankful for the rest days I had away from the gym allowing my sore body to heal.

I have overcome a generational curse as I was the first one in the family to graduate from college.
I have overcome having a negative attitude towards fitness to a "can do" attitude. I have lost over 70 pounds.

Today I had Coffee, baked pork steak with brown rice, banana, grapes, shredz protein shake, a ham sandwich, more protein shake, and a glass of red wine

This is a good topic, since I had kind of a crummy day and I need to remember that my problems are small compared to my blessings.

1. Even though it was a terrible food day and I went way over my calories, I somehow managed to be under on my cholesterol. Yes!
2. My dad is alive and still living independently at 84, even with kidney disease, colitis, and various other ailments.
3. All three of my kids are nice, successful human beings.
4. My grandson is freaking adorable!
5. I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach (obviously!) and everything I need and lots of what I want.